xinni

2007-08-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

2007-08-03T20:01:00.000+08:00

Burnt OUT

today went to school early to ex-change the IVP jacket for dear dear, shane and linus. after that we went to bugis to have our lunch with zh's parents, maryann, grace and sam. hahas. then after that we headed to NSC to wash our boats. i was busy washing my boats and dear dear is doing up his boats and stuffs. i keep washing the top of the boats then dear dear come to me and "scold me" . lolx. he told me that most important for the boat is the hull and not the top. dont waste your effort wahing the top. it's not going to help u to move faster if the boat is clean white! lolx. stupid me! my effort just gone like this. but after washing the top of the boat, i feel contended. coz the boat is shiny! hahas. then after that dear dear help me to wash the hull and polish it for me. hahas. now my boat is all shiny! hahas. thank dear dear! u are the best. among all the boats there, mine is the best! hahas. love it man! oppos! if ma is going to see this, i think i know what she will say. =P after washing the boat, we headed to suki sushi at cine. junkhee,ma,grace,sam,mel,zh and me! hahas. all of us ate alot! hahas. i ate alot and now my stomach is bursting. damm pain la! then after that dear dear sent me home and now i am at home resting with one bloated stomach. lolx. damm tired! tommor having sailing race at NSC. all the best to all SP sailors. good luck to me too! dear dear all the best! i know u can do it. dont give up! endure dear dear! i love u! muackz! <3

2007-07-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 4TH MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!!!

Thank dear dear for everything that he had given me.
I really appreciated it.
Dear dear, i really think that u are the one who always listen to me, support me, give in to me...
You have given me all your best.
i am sorry for all my wildness that i had caused to u thru' this 4th months.
I know u dont mind at all, but in the end u will always be the first one to support me.
i really thank for giving me all these loves!
no matter what happen, i will always be there for u.
dear dear, i love u!
muackz!

today, i went to meet dear dear at dover mrt station.
Then after that, dear dear's parents sent us to cheese prata shop to eat breakfast.
After that, they sent us to poly marina for my sailing training.
dear dear helps me with the powerboat stuffs.
I think he finally know how much strength i need to put in whenever i do all these things!
lolx!
thank dear dear for helping me.
today training end rather early, coz there is no wind.
so we play some games out in the sea then we recover back on shore around 1.30p.m.
after packing up and a short de-brief, i quickly go bathe and go out with dear dear.
zhilong also follow us to dear dear hus, then after that go meet soo mei for dinner.
we went to eat seoul garden. omg! damm full man!
dear dear is so loving la!
keeping cooking all the foods for me to eat.
i really love dear dear so much.
dear dear! i love u! nothing is gona changed my love for u.
muackz!
talking to dear dear on the phone now.
gtg. love u ya! night dear dear. i love u forever. <3

2007-07-25T23:23:00.001+08:00

Dear dear today wake me up for school but i am still late for lesson.

He came all the way from his hus to my hus just to fetch me to sch.

Omg?!

i am damm touched la.

lolx.

I love dear dear so much!

After i wake up, i went to bathe and went down to meet him.

then after that we went to have breakfast together and then ahead to school.

lolx.

i want to go for maths lesson but when i reach sch is already 9a.m.

so i just went for the 10a.m lesson.

after the lesson, darling went to fetch MARC TAY- the seaweed chicken prince!

lolx.

they waited for me outside my class.

after that we went to the clubroom together.

then that stupid marc was counting all the $2 notes like hell!

after counting all the money, i concluded something!

MARC TAY can't count and his maths really fail!

lolx.

then after that, dear dear and i went to the mrt to meet edwin to take the laser radial sail.

then after we went down to nsc to make payment for the race.

then after that we went to parkway parade to have our lunch and shop around.

guess who we saw at parkway parade?

i saw jovin! that national disable sailor.

lolx.

me and dear dear went arcade also saw him.

damm suay la!

at about 5.30p.m, we went to take bus 966 to woodslands to meet zhilong and soo mei for dinner at pizza hut.

we are suppose to meet at 7p.m but they were also late.

lolx.

so me and dear dear went to pizza hut to sit first.

30min later, both of them arrive.

we order pizza!

we finish the whole bottle of cheedear cheese!

muhahahas.

then after dinner i went to take passport photo and develop some photos!

hahas.

then after, dear dear gave me money to let me take cab home.

i am going to sleep now!
love dear dear! muackz! <3

Photos time!!!

ME AND DEAR DEAR!

PORK SM and POKEMON!!!

what are all the guys doing?

2 copules! =)

hawanian pizza!

chesy pizza!

2007-07-22T20:25:00.000+08:00

20hrs more!!!

Darling will be back in singapore soon!
i can't wait to see him!
i miss him so much.
hahas.
darling! i keep thinking what will i do when i first see you at the airport?
hug you?
kiss you?
smiles?
omg!
i am going crazy la.
i can't wait to see my baby boy.
i miss him so much!
dear dear,tomor will be my happy day.
i dont know what is in my mind now.
i am only thinking about you and nothing else!
dear dear! i love you forever.
nothing gona separate us.
no matter what happen to u, i will always be there for u.
love u darling.
i will be waiting patiently outside the airport for you.
i love u. muackz! <3
*cant wait to see dear dear!

2007-07-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

12 July 2007, Thursday

Nothing much happens today.
but i cant help myself to stop thinking of you.
you are always my start of the day.
darling, i really miss u so much!
i can feel your heart pumping yet i can't see u.
darling, loving u with all my hearts.

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THROUGH LOVE all that is bitter will be sweet
Through Love all that is copper will be gold.
Through Love all dregs will turn to purest wine
Through Love all pain will turn to medicine.
Through Love the dead will all become alive.
Through Love the king will turn into a slave!

Passion makes the old medicine new:
Passion lops off the bough of weariness.
Passion is the elixir that renews:
how can there be wearinesswhen passion is present?
Oh, don't sigh heavily from fatigue:
seek passion, seek passion, seek passion!

The intellectual is always showing off,the lover is always getting lost.
The intellectual runs away.
afraid of drowning;
the whole business of loveis to drown in the sea.
Intellectuals plan their repose;
lovers are ashamed to rest.
The lover is always alone.
even surrounded by people;
like water and oil,
he remains apart.
The man who goes to the troubleof giving advice to a loverget nothing.
He's mocked by passion.
Love is like musk.
It attracts attention.
Love is a tree, and the lovers are its shade.

~Jalaluddin Rumi~

2007-07-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

11 July 2007, Wednesday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TING TING!!!

Birthday wishes for my gal:

1) hope that u and Luis can last forever
2) live your life to the fullness
3) fulfill all your wishes

Today was a tired day for me. So many things to do. i am stressed! that's all for today! Nights! take care! =)
Darling! i love u. i miss u so much! i want to hug u! i want kiss u! where is my baby boy??? thinking of u everyday, every minute, every second...

2007-07-17T20:01:00.000+08:00

10 July 2007, Tuesday

Today, i have my Date C0mmunications System PBIL test. My partner is Boon Keat. We manage to do solve the problem and show it to the lecturer. Thank god man! If not, i really dont know what will happen. Today was rather a tired day for me. Mt cough was getting worst and worst! cough until tears started rolling down my eyes! =X damm sick la. But at night went out with Jazebel, Joo Ting and Ting Ting. We went to fish&co to have our dinner and as well as celebrate Ting Ting 18th Birthday!!! I ate New York Fish&Chips! hahas. having bad cough and soar throat, I still manage to finish up my dinner. The fish was delicious la. When u bite the fdory fish, the cheese just melts inside your mouth. hahas. sinful man! But sad to say, i got scolding from dear dear after i told him what i ate for my dinner. lolx. He is always so caring even when he is not in singapore. This shows how much dear dear really cares for his PIG! =) Tingting orders sweet and sour fish, jazebel orders black pepper stingray and jooting orders THE BIGGEST DISH AMOUG US----> SWORDFISH COLLAR. hahas. She eats until damm xin ku. Poor JooTing!!! But i bet she still prefers to eat New York Fish&chips!!! hahas.

At about 9p.m, darling called jooting's hp for me. jooting was rather shocked when she heard zhen hao called her hp to lok for his PIG! lolx. sorry darling, my hp got no more battery! so talk for a while on her hp as her hp's battery was also running low. lolx. so i quickly rush home to charge my hp so that darling can call me and we can chat over the phone. =) darling, i really miss u so much! keeping thinking of you! i cant sleep while not listening to ur voice! i keep tossing round and round my bed before i could sleep every night. darling! where are you! missing u deadly! love u forever! muackz. MY HEART WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU! <3

2007-07-09T22:00:00.001+08:00

9 July 2007, Monday

Today was feeling damm sick.
NO voice, coughing damm badly.
everything is like shit.
cant pull myself out from the bed to school.
dying...
ends up i slept until 11+
zhilong msg me to tell me that today got quiz but why didnt i go to school.
i was like omg! wtf man!
sighs.
then he told me that next week i can still take the test.
so i was like ok...
zzz.
damm tired.
my throat is killing me!
tomor is ting ting bday.
how am i going to eat steamboat when my throat is like that?
shit la!
nvm is okay.
negative plus negative become POSITIVE!!!
muhahahahas.
so after tommor's dinner, my throat is suppose to get better and not worst.
lolx. =X
oh dear!
that's all for today.
i will make an efffort to blog everyday.
dont worry of me.
i will take care of myself.
u must also take care ok?
must sail hard and train hard!!!
i know u can do it.
dont give up!
i am there to motivate u.
all the best.
love u darling.
muackz <3

2007-07-09T16:04:00.000+08:00

8 July 2007, Sunday

today is the second day of BSC(basic sailing course).
went down together with jooting.
when we went down, yulong was already there preparing the petrol for the powerboat.
after that, we get ready to lauch out the powerboat and the pico.
today the whole day is water training.
after lunch, i learn how to rig up laser radial and jooting learn how to rig up laser standard.
then that we lauch both laser out.
omg!
the wind is damm shiok man.
i cant believe that i actually manage to handle it properly.
hahas.
i am not that scared.
i have slowly overcome my fear of capsizing.
lolx.
we sail all the way out to the open sea.
omg!
it's damm cool.
i was not scared at all.
i maintain the course that i am sailing.
after that we sail back to pm and recover.
i was burnt again.
luckily i wear lycra. if not i think i will be tanned BLACK!!!
hahas. =X
guess what?
i recover my boat all by myself.
i park my boat properly and run up to push the trolley.
hahas.
i really can do it all by myself.
i am damm happy when i can do it. =)
so proud of myself.
after recovering, we pack up everything and carry the stimulator over to RSYC.
and we went there to bathe as well.
after bathing, we went to have dinner and went back home.
my pig is waititng to talk to me in msn and over the phone but i am still on my way home.
poor darling having fever and jetlag.
darling, u have to take care of urself.
sleep early.
train hard and sail hard.
love u always.
miss u like crazy!
muackz! <3

2007-07-09T14:25:00.001+08:00

7 July 2007, Saturday

Woke up damm early to bring kuan kuan for tuition at Sembawang.

I meet his chinese teacher at the Sembawang mrt station.

Then after that i took train all the way down to harbourfront mrt station and i took a cab in to PM.

I reached there rather late.

By the time i reach there, the Power boats stuffs have already done.

Thank jooting, ben and grace for helping. =)

sad to say, something bad really happen!

the powerboat key fell into the seabed.

i was damm stressed and dont noe what to do.

the logistic post really need to take up high responsibility.

After that, me, grace and ben went out with tiong jin.

ben sail laser out. and me and grace is in the powerboat talking cock with tiong jin. lolx.

then i get a chance to steer the powerboat.

damm fun man.

hahas.

i should that up the ppdcl lisense.

hehe.

the first of bsc doesnt seems to be good.

no wind and super sunny!!!

i am burnt after sailing.

somemore i wear short sleeves shirt.

when i went back to shore, my hand got two colour!

damm ugly! eeyee..

stop complaining when u forget to apply sun-block!

after the whole course is done.

me, ben and grace was the powerboat and get the whole place clear asap.

after that we went over to RSYC to bathe.

OMG!!! damm shiok sia.

we went into the steam room before we bathe.

hahas.

guess what the temperature is damm high sia.

55 degrees!!!

roasted xinni, grace and geradline.

muhahas.

after the steam room, we took some phtos before we go for bathe.

afterthat jooting came back from keelboat training.

we waited for her and after that we took a cab to np poly for the concert.

when we reached there, we saw our friend, wendy.

after we went in for the concert first.

i was feeling damm tired and sleep at the chair man.

so cosy!

the concert was nice!

i love all the music played by them.

after the conert, took a cab back home with them.

after i reached home, i quickly washed up and get myself on bed.

that's all for today.

i miss u so much!

please take care of urself.

love u forever!

muackz! <3

PHOTOS TIME!!!

Grace, Me and geradline

after steam bathe

BURRS...

trying to act big eyes ar?

FRONT!!!

BACK!!! i love grace's broadshorts.

her ex bought it from australia.

DARLING i ALSO WANT!!! =P

np poly concert

the cello

Wendy!!! our pro harmonia player. =D

in the dark...

the drummer. cool right? =X

the whole rhymonia

me with the rose. =)

yuqi! my australian friend.

me and yuqi

me, yuqi and jazebel

2007-07-09T13:58:00.000+08:00

6 july 2007 , Friday

Darling leave canada for YOUTHS WORLD CHAMPIONSHIPS.
He will be back on the 23 july 2007.
I miss him so much.
Today spent the whole day with darling.
I went over to his house and accompany him and sent him of at the airport.
We cycle from his house to Bukit Panjang Plaza to buy MISSY DONUTS, lunch and as well as cut hair.
We manage to buy the MISSY DONUTS but it taste horrible.
But nevermind is okay!
Darling says he will buy it from DONUT FACTORY when he return back from canada.
Thank darling.
I am always pampered by this PIG! =P
After buying everything, we cycle back home.
OMG!!! Th journey back home really kills me!
I cycle until both of my thighs hurts badly.
sad sad! Thia shows that i havent benn exercising for ages. =X
When we reached home, i sweat until like crazy.Is like raindrops falling on my head!
So, i went to dry myself up. =)
After that we watch SAW 3.
oh phew! This movie is highly rated for bloody.
All the while, i was covering my eyes with the blanket. lolx.
disgusting show! yikes!
But the moment that i spent with darling is the precious.
After showing, we get ready to go out for dinner.
aunty and uncle ordered alot of foods.
omg! all of the foods taste delicious man!
yummy!!! Thank aunty and uncle.
After dinner went went straight to National Sailing Centre.
Darling went to help out the wind surfer to carry his surf boat into the van.
Darling went to the airport with his sailors and i went with his parents.
When we reached airport, we went to popeyees chicken and biscuit to have some snacks.
After a while, we went to meet up with other sailors.
All the sailors are very friendly.
They all say hi to me.
hahas.
and 1 thing, my pig of mine make me damm embrassed.
When they check-in.
Darling hug me and kiss me in front of the sailors.
This is the most happiest moments. =)
Darling really leave singapore and went to canada.
I am going to miss darling dearly.
All the best darling.
Train hard and sail hard!
I am sure u can get a medal back to do singapore proud.
good luck!
love u always. <3

PHOTOS TIME!!!

darling and me at the airport

smiles piggy!!!

what is dear dear trying to do? act cute? =X

2007-07-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

Xinni back in action again!

Here am i blogging again.

hahas.

These few days damm tired.

Dont really feel like doing anything at all.

All i want is to sleep and sleep!!!

Darling is damm sweet la,bought me a crumpler bag!

One new pair of havainess slipper.

Omg!

I love all them man!!!

Thank darling.

Then darling took me to see sushi, lerki thai food and eat xiao long bao!

Woah...

All the food are so delicious.

Darling treats me to everything!

Movies, popcorn, ben & jerry ice-cream and my percy pig candy!

hahas.

I love all of them.

But i still love QUEK ZHEN HAO the MOST!!!

lolx.

Now, i can feel te power of love in my hands.

Nothing is gona to break us apart!

This is how much i love him.

No matter what happen to him or me, i will still be there for him.

Thank darling for everything.

Our relationship have become stronger and stronger each day.

Haven been quarrelling for very long.

I am so happy.

Sometimes u give in to me, and sometime i give in to u.

This is how couple shd be doing.

Zhen Hao: i really thank u for whatever thing that u have done me.

I love u, darling!

Good night!

I am going to sleep now!

Tommor lesson at 8a.m.

Take care darling!

Muackz.

MUSH MUSH!!!

mine crumpler!!! =)

STAR STAR - darling bought it from germany.

my piggy gummies! oinks!

new slipper

Turtle Soup ice-cream ^_^

BEN&JERRY

pineapple rice

my thai food =)

minced chicken by chef's cook

the clear pot - Tom Yum Seafood Soup

my pig is smiling! =D

while waiting for the food to be served,darling concentrating with his PSP.

the Thai resturant...

2007-07-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

LET THE PHOTOS DON ALL THE TALKING...

2007-06-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY!!!

Today after my exams, went to darling's hus to meet up with him. then after that we went ot orchard to see crumpler bag! guess what? when darling asked me which one is nice then i did say one. but when i say, he took the crumpler and pay at the counter! i am damm shocked la. i have been longing for one crumpler bag for so long and finally i got it! hahas. thank darling, i love the crumpler. =) darling bought a necklace too! so happy la~ =D

then after that, went to meet darling's frenz(sammanta and tian hong). darling tok to tianhong,(his guy partner) for damm long like he didnt see tian hong before in the whole year! after that we went ding dai feng to have lunch! hahas. the xiao long bao is damm nice la! the shrimp bao is also damm yummy. hahas. after that we headed to find soo mei and wennt to causewayto watch movie. but ends up, we didnt manage to watch at all. lolx. =)

darling send me home and now i am here blogging. hahas.
darling! i really appreciated what u have done for me. i love u forever! muackz!
piggy loves queky!!!

2007-06-28T00:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY!

Darling, finally comes back from germany.
He came back with lots of presents for me la.
so Happy!
He bought me 2 shirts, 2 soft toys and 1 box of chocolates!
omg!
i cant help myself to eat the chocolates!
hahas.
thank you! darling!
i love u. <3
Muackz!

*sorry for the short post, i am back to mug for my exam.*

2007-06-23T21:48:00.000+08:00

i am pissed!
arghz!
woke up damm early today again.
i was very moodly.
damm pek cek la.
bcoz i got not enough sleep.
nvm.
went out at around 1.15p.m to meet ting ting at tampines mall.
waited for her at starbucks.
after that went off to buy swimming costumes.
bcoz actually we are suppose to go swimming with jooting after going to that PIG's hus.
then mummy called!
she asked me to go home bcoz we having family dinner.
zzz.
after that, i was like.
wth la~
last minute again!
how am i suppose to tell my friend?
arghz!
no choice.
i told jooting abt what happen and she was damm sad la.
sorry babe.
then after i collect the my uniform pay, went off to buy some JUNK FOODS to eat again!
i bought seafood teppera and 1 stick of sotong balls.
yummy food!
i just LOVE to eat! ^_^
then after that waited for tingting's darling to come and fetch us to that PIG's hus.
after that ting ting's bf fetch me home.

hahas.

damm good la~

should have a bf who can drive too!

then can drove u around where ever u want man!

PIG! hurry go get your liscense la! then go buy a car then can fetch me around le. =X

went out dinner with whole family at chomp chomp.

i had a sumputous dinner.

guess what i eat?

BBQ stingray, sambal kang gong, xiao kai lan, sea food la la, calms, fried oyster, BBQ sotong, sugar cane drinks and desserts.

hahas.

i love the food!

craving for more foods!!!

yummy!

below are some photos i take during dinner.

Sambal seafood la la

i love all the food la~

yummy!

BIG sugarcane drinks. =D

MINE's drink ok? TIGER BEER! =X

Fried oyster!!!

love PIG!

who is this? ZHEN HAO la~

2007-06-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

today wake up at 8.45a.m.

force myself up to meet soo mei at woodlands mrt to go to darling's hus.

suppose to go to his hus at 10a.m.

but i reach his place 30 min later.

hahas.

as usual la.

i am always late!

sorry!

after i reach the PIG's hus,went to dig his table for maths lecture notes and tutorial.

stupid pig!

anyhow put his things, have to keeping finding.

and aunty is so cute la, help me to find too.

she take out all PIG's paper from the cupboard.

poor aunty!

all the things she takes out, all darling's secondary notes.

hahas.

so i find it myself. =)

but that, i quickly put ONE THING inside my bag!

hahas.

the PIG will noe what thing babx.

that's all for today.

i am tired!

take care piggy!

love u always!

muackz! <3

2007-06-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

yippee!!!

i finally got my microphone done!

today went out with babe, ting ting, to walk around.

we went to compass point and i decided to purchase my own webcam rather than use soo mei's one.

hahas.

so i bought the identical one which is same as soo mei.

after i buy, i ask the salesman to help me install the webcam.

he was damm good la.

have good customer service la.

thank alot man!

after they help me to install, actually cannot, and it took them awhile to figure it for me.

lolx.

in the end, my mircophone can be use le.

omg?!

i am damm high la.

finally can hear darling's voice le.

hehe.

tonight can tok to darling le!

muhahahahahas. ^_^

so happy la~

then after i wanted to go mac to try out skype.

but sad to say, mac internet is down.

then i saw like...

i cant wait to go home to try out la.

so we went to burger king to have some finger bites.

yumy!

we ate hershey sundae chocolate pie!

i'm lovin it!

hehe

took a few photos with tingting.

after that we decided to go home.

and guess what?

that stupid siao char bo leave her ez-link card on the table.

lolx.

how clever can she be man!

went back to search ups and down for her card.

ends up we didnt manage to find the ez-link.

so i decided to ask the waiter there and he took her ez-link and pass it to me.

that stupid girl!

happy like bird la!

after that, we headed home.

hahas.

and now, i am here blogging.

the first thing i went home was to try out my microphone la.

can use man!

i was damm happy la~

cant wait to use it!

darling!

we can talk to each other using skype la.

waiting to talk to you tonight.

that's all for today.

take care, guys!

me and ting ting!

i look like shit! =P

smiles! =D

enjoyingur sundae? hahas.

my hershery sundae pie!

me! goh xinni. =)

ailian la!
hahas

why do u look so sad? who bully u?

2007-06-20T15:40:00.000+08:00

There's a special place in my heart

that only you can touch -

a place where I can go and feel you near.

Throughout the day I think of you.

I see your smile, hear your voice

and in my thoughts you lovingly appear.

The way we love each other

makes it hard to be apart

so when I can't hold you in my arms,

I hold you in my heart.

Love Always,

Xinni

2007-06-20T00:44:00.000+08:00

MUGGING!!!

today wake up at 12p.m.

rather late.

i am tired la.

talk to that pig until 7a.m in the morning la.

then went to sleep until this morning.

woke up and took a bathe and have my lunch.

after all this, i sit in front of my study-table.

started mugging for engineering maths.

going LAPLACE TRANSFORM.

damm stress sia!

suddenly forget how to do all the questions.

so went back to revise all the tutorials.

then i continue to do the practice paper.

i mug from 1p.m to 6p.m.

damm tired la.

took breaks in between.

hahas.

guess what did i do during my breaks?

i miss someone so much that i did something crazy!

lolx.

started drawing things about him on the paper.

naughty xinni!

never concentrate while studying!

love sick!

after 6p.m, i went out to have dinner with my family.

it have been long since we sit down and have dinner together la.

went to alot of places today.

searching for palces to eat.

the first place we went to was serangoon.

then got no place and dont feel like having dinner at there.

so we went to ang mo kio.

mummy wanted to eat crabs badly.

so daddy suggest to go ang mo kio, coz there is a stall which sells mainly all crabs.

so we went there, but sad to say.

the place have shifted and dont noe where it go too.

sorry mum!

then we went to another part of ang mo kio too.

and WHAT?

we never have dinner there too.

in the end, we went to ang mo kio ave 3 to have dinner.

stupid la!

ends up, we have dinner at 8.15p.m la~

damm late la.

i was having gastric while waiting for dinner.

poor me!

mummy ordered BBQ stingray, BBQ catfish, BBQ sotong, oat prawn, vegetables, black pepper crab!

omg?!

all those sinful food.

yummy!

i had a delicious dinner!

love all of u!

oppos!

if darling finds out i eat so much, he will be shocked man.

lolx.

too bad!

i just loves all these foods.

woah!

i love tonight's dinner.

after that, i reach home at 10.30p.m babx.

then continue to mug again.

now, taking breaks!

damm tired la.

stressed!

i hate exams!

arghz!

will i pass?

*Below are some pictures. Let the pictures do the talking.*

i am studying hor. SERIOUS!

studying table! damm messy la~

=) MY PIGGY!

Before...

that's what i did during my break! =P

2007-06-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

Never Date a Scorpio

Jealous, paranoid, and possessive - deep down, your Scorpio will never trust you.

And even if you are very trust worthy person, Scorpio's paranoia may drive you to act out.

Instead try dating: Aries, Gemini, Libra, or Sagittarius

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

QUEK ZHEN HAO IS ARIES! lolx. =)

should i choose to believe?

2007-06-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

tired day out in the sea.
today went for sailing training.
wind was damm good today.
i trained on laser radial.
damm shiok la.
but both my hands got rope burn.
now! i cant even close my hands at all.
damm pain la.
my face is burned again.
damm pain and red.
sighs.
i regretted not wearing gloves la.
zzz.
my both my legs also got bruises.
damm pain la~
i have severve gastric pain.
i ate 1 rice dumpling in the morning.
i thought is enough to last for the whole day.
but too bad!
my gastric is painful.
i was having gastric and i went ot take curry.
wth man~
after eating, my stomach become worst.
hahas.
and now, i am blogging and suffering.
arghz!
help me. i am dying.
my gastric is killing me!
i got no medicine to eat la.
sighs!
waiting for darling.
love u always.
muack.

2007-06-16T19:51:00.000+08:00

I want to live peacefully!!!

listen to this type of music really can make ur day happy.
slow and sweet music.
how i wish i know how to play a piano.
i love the music.

today is rather a bad day for me.
but after listening to this type of music, it really lightened up my day.
why must parents keeping nagging at their own children?
i dont understand at all.
can't they just don't nag for 1 day?
just 1 day will do.
they keep saying that whatever they do and nag are all for your own good.
but, i don't get it.
can't they just use other ways rather than nagging?
mummy nags in the morning.
then when daddy is back home, he nags again.
kinda tired living in this house.
can i live outside?
a hostel?
a rented room?
parents just dont understand us well.
i dont see a need for them to keep nagging.
the more they nag and ask me to do, the more i wont do.
i will become more and more stubborn.
aren't u know that u know that all these won't help?
do you really know what we want?
i bet u know but u just don't know how to express your love to us.
u will think that is damm difficult to show it to us.
bcoz u are afraid to face the reality.
sorry to say all these.
it kinda shameful to let my friends know what a family i have.
sighs!
what to do?
overall they are still my beloved daddy and mummy.
i love them.
nothing can replace them in the heart.
i will try my best to change and suit the way u like me to be.
omg?! why am i so EMO?
lolx.

that's all for today.
it's time for me to mug!
study time!
take care guys.

* darling, i miss u so much la. love u always. muackz. *

2007-06-14T11:53:00.000+08:00

WHAT A DAY!!!

i am pissed with someone!
after i recieved the msg from you, u made my day feeling like shit!
arghz!
logistics!
you sucks la~
you ask me to write report regarding the powerboat no.56.
saying that the obm(out board motor) got problem.
i dont even know what happen to the obm and u are asking me to write the report!
arghz!
this is dont pissed me off that much.
u say this please a report to you so that you can send it to saa!
please la!
the thing that i dont understand is since you know so much, why dont u take up this post?
you keep saying that you are afraid that you cant committed into this club and somehow there something to do with your studies.
all these is just an excuse la!
is how u are going to plan ur things!
dont keep saying that you cant la.
hate it to the core man!
arghz!
and one more thing!
i dont like that way you put to ppl showing that you know alot of thing abt powerboat and you just dont want to take up the log post!
are you trying to let ppl think that you are very big?
the whole club need you!
if you quit the club, the whole club will collapse?
fuck la!
tell u seriously la!
i cant communicate with u!
whenever i think abt the way u act, u just pissed me off!
maybe sooner or later, i can change my attidue.
but for now!
i dont think so.

my day have been spoilt by someone!
if the person happen to read this and is not happy with what i have say, can tell me straight to my face!
fuck la~~~

2007-06-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 19TH BIRTHDAY, ZHILONG!!!

today is rather a tired day for me. wake up quite late for school today. i had DCS labtest at 9a.m in the morning and i reach school exactly on time. i thought i will be late man. phew! when i went in for the labtest, my whole mind is a blank! i dont noe what the question is trying to ask. i cant do anything at all. the duration for the labtest is 20min. arghz! i started to panic. Zhilong who had already done the test, guide me thru' it. but the stupid lecturer says i didnt show her the steps to it and hence, she asks me to re-do everything. arghz! if wasnt that i shd have get 50/100 la. but ends up now i only get 20/100. =( sianx. i dont blame anyone la. is my fault! never revise enough at all. after that the labtest, i felt so sad and got no mood and confidence for the next labtest. so i was there complaining to my darling la. poor darling! have to listen to all my sorrows. but he is always there for me when i need him. although, he is not beside me but i can feel his spirits staying beside me. love ya!

guess what? after the sad paper! i manage to get the next test done! i manage to connect all the circuit and the graph! lolx. the technication is damm good la. help us thru' the labtest. lolx. thank ar! i think i can get 95% babx. if nothing go wrong la. =P after labtest, when to food court to have lunch with my friend. then soo mei bought a cake and we celebrate her PORK bday together with my classmates. Zhilong was rather feeling paiseh la. coz we were like singing bday songs loudly in FOOD COURT 4!!! all eyes are on him. =X happy birthday zhilong! may all ur wishes come true! =) after the mini celebration, we all went for lesson and i ended my lesson at 5p.m. i am tired!!! went home straight after school. darling was like so happy la. coz i am home early today. lolx. HE PRAISED ME TOO! =X at night, i went for Kumon with my little brother. i finished very early and i have to wait for him so damm long hours. i didnt brought my wallet and ez-link card out, coz i thought that my parents will come and fetch me so what's the point of bringing. but i regretted! if i bring, i will be back home at 8p.m. so i waited for my brother until 10p.m and then we went home together. now! i am back home mugging for tommor's labtest. that's all for today. got to mug again. i dont want to fail again.

take care guys! below are some photos of what happen today! let the photos do the talking. =)

QUEK ZHEN HAO!!! darling, i love you! miss u loads. muackz <3

2007-06-05T21:06:00.000+08:00

tired!!!

today went home from schol very early.
i reach home at 1.30p.m.
when i reach home, the first thing that i do was to get change and lie on my bed and take a nap.
lolx.
it had been long ever since i took afternoon nap.
=)
around 3.15p.m, daddy came back from work and he woke me up.
he asks me to bathe,get change and get ready to go for medical appointment.
so i did as he says.
daddy fetchs mummy and me down to orchard towers for medical appointment.
when i went in, they ask me to do something which is like a test.
zzz.
after the test, they say like i suffer from Irlen Syndrome/Scotopic Sensitivity.
they say that this is genetic illness.
Irlen Syndrome/Scotopic Sensitivity is a perceptual problem that prevents an estimated 10-12% of the population from being able to learn, read or study efficiently.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT ARE THE SYMPTOMS?
- Light Sensitivity
- Inefficient Reading
- Slow Reading Rate
- Attention Deficit
- Strain or fatigue
- Poor Depth Perception

what shold i do?
can i choose to belive all these things?
lolx.
woah...
dont think too much.
smiles =)

after the medical appointment, daddy fetchs us to long beach to have dinner.
had a sumptions dinner with parents.
have been sitting down to have dinner with them.
felt so guilty!
ever since, i am in relationship.
dont even have time for family.
sad!
sorry daddy and mummy!
i promised will have more dinner with both of u and spent more than u all.
love u always!

today, i feel as if i am flying up into the sky.
i feel rather happy!
Zhen hao: i manage to get our blog now!
hahaa...
all thank to my burr- grace!
if wasnt ur help, i wouldnt have done the blog.
thank burr!

that's all for today.
i am tired.
sleep early.
nights out!

2007-06-02T16:41:00.001+08:00

Darling and me!

ME!!! smiles! =)

can u kiss me???

i love this photo! quek and ME!

me!

siao char bo? what are u doing man! =P

muackz! <3

2007-06-02T15:27:00.000+08:00

so many day never updated.
so many things have happen during these days.
hmmx...
where am i going to start?
lolx...

2 june 2007

Today woke up quite early in the morning at 8.40a.m.
darling's message woke me up.
lolx.
suppose to sleep till late afternoon, bcoz last few days were tiring days for me.
but nevermind.
after wake up, i went to bathe.
after that mummy says me to help her to sweep and mop the floor and cook lunch my younger brother and myself.
bcoz she will be out to fetch my mama for kidney dialysis.
so being a good daughter, of course, i help mummy la. =P
i cook instant noodles for lunch.
too lazy to cook other foods so too bad kuankuan had to eat instant noodles for lunch. =X
sorry! i promised la, next time will cook a sumptions lunch for u la.
oppos! when will the next time arrived? ----> not so soon!!!
after lunch time, i went to pack my room and cupboard.
so dusty!!! yikes!!! mummy has been nagging me for ages to pack my room!
finally today, i decided to do it.
hahas. my room suddenly become so neat and tidy.
this makes my mood happy man! =)
after everything is done!
i settle down sechduling my time-table for revision for upcoming MST!
i print out all the MST practice papers to practice.
stacks of MST papers piling up my desk.
STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!
so much to study man!
no time for other things.
tired...
stressed...

MST TIME-TABLE:

Monday,25June2007
Analog Communication System
5.30p.m to 7.00p.m
T1551

Tuesday,26June2007
Engineering Mathematics
10.30a.m to 12.00p.m
T1544

Wednesday,27June2007
Circuit Analysis
8.30a.m to 10.00a.m
T1551

Thursday,28June2007
Object Oriented Programming
3.30p.m to 4.30p.m
T1523

Friday,29June2007
Data Communication System
8.30a.m to 10.00a.m
T1544

Endure man!
Practice makes perfect!
All the best!

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darling went for racing today.
hope it will be a good race!
sorry to ask u buy the smaller size for the shirt.
it's my fault.
sorry.
but seriously, u look better in tight-fitted shirt. =)
feel so guilty la.
cause u get scolding from ur mom.
sorry darling!
cheer up man!
i will miss u deadly la.

darling going overseas for sailing training soon.

Germany:
11 June 2007 to 26 June 2007

Canada:
10 July to ...

so long!!!
nevermind, i will learn during this period to be independent. =)
don't worry!
i will know how to take care of myself.
U just need to concentrate in ur training will do.
smiles!
cheers!
Take care. =)

2007-05-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2TH MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!!!

DARLING, I LOVE U.
THANK FOR ALL THE CARE AND CONCERN THAT U SHOW TO ME DURING THIS PERIOD OF TIME.
I REALLY APPRECIATED IT.
I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGISE FOR MY WILDNESS WHICH MAKE U WORRIED EVERYTIME.
I LOVE U!
I MISS U!
I WANT TO HUG U!
I WANT TO KISS U!
I WANT...............

HOPE EVERYTHING WILL MOVE ON SMOOTHLY...
LOVE U ALWAYS! MUACKZ!

2007-05-23T16:12:00.001+08:00

E-learning week!!!

I stay at home the whole day doing nothing..
i did some of the e-learning stuffs..
rather tired after doing it..
Black-board was very laggy..
took a very long time to load the web-page..
after doing, i continue to watch Taiyou No Uta..
Its a very touching show..
can u imagine?
i cry while watching it?
below is the soundtrake of the show.
it's awersome!!!

stupid darling!
went for his training again..
leave me all alone at home..
sad!
but what to do?
nevermind, i can understand..
competition is round the corner, trainings are very important.
so, darling! u have to jia you! dont give up! i will always be there for you.
while i was writing this post, suddently i feel so lonely..
darling leaving for youths worlds soon..
no one will talk to me every night before i sleep..
no one will be there whenever i need him..
no one will be also there nagging at me..
no one!!! he is gone..
but i will believe that his spirits will be here for me every moments..
dont worry darling, i will still be strong when u are not around..
waiting for u to return..
love u always..
muackz!

This song starts off slowly with a guitar solo, which slowly opens up into a more powerful intro with other musical instruments typically used in bands. Kaoru’s vocals aren’t especially powerful but they seem to have the characteristic of sounding clear and emotional, especially during the chorus. The chorus is especially quite beautiful, the melody is so emotional and heart-rending, that one cannot help but be moved by this song.

The use of an acoustic guitar and electric guitar were used in the same song, and surprisingly they blended really well with each other. To fill the gaps by giving this ballad a more emotional edge, strings were used. This made the song sound more soothing and soften the ‘harder’ drumset accompaniment. The electric guitar is rather toned down in order to allow Kaoru’s weak vocal to stand out.

This song also boasts of an enchanting composition and artistic and emotional lyrics. The lyrics speak about how Kaoru hid herself from the light and how she was afraid to discover different emotions because she feared she would get hurt and how Kouji gave her light and colour in her life. The lyrics and composition were done by Maika Shiratori.

The fictional band which was used within the dorama was called “Moon Child”, inspired by Kaoru’s genetic disorder. This band consisted of a keyboard, a bass, electric guitar, a drumset and a vocalist. Kouji and his friends played the instruments after being inspired by Kouji playing his guitar, while Kaoru is the vocalist. This song certainly has a ‘band’ feeling, although it also has a definite ’studio’ feel, as if the original song was modified by a recording company to make it sound more professional and having a marketing quality.

However this song has some flaws. Kaoru’s vocals are a bit weak at some parts, as if she’s whispering or she doesn’t have the strength to continue singing. I’m not exactly sure if it was simply because her vocals are simply weak or if she was supposed to sound so. Nonetheless it’s quite impressive to see a person without any previous experience with singing to have such pleasant and soothing vocals which flow so well with the song.

This song is quite different from “Taiyou no Uta”. The tone is more light-hearted and playful. This ballad has a mid-tempo tone with a rather repetitive beat. The message seems to point at how a girl discovers love and consequently sees how beautiful life can be. Thus she doesn’t want her loved one to leave her.

Since it was the very first song Kaoru composed, I believe that it was especially composed to sound simple and uncomplicated to show how her skills were quite low at that time. The melody isn’t complex and thus it doesn’t stand out much. In fact it has a rather ‘indie’ feel, with an unpolished touch. The musical instruments are typical to groups or bands, making it sound as if “Moon Child” were playing this song. It’s definitely not a groundbreaking song but I find it’s so touching and sweet, in a manner that display the innocent feelings of a young girl so directly.

That's all for today. hope u all enjoy the songs.
Take care guys. =)

2007-05-20T20:19:00.000+08:00

BURNT!!!

Have been away from home for the past 3 days.. Kinda miss my bed and stuffs.. I am tired.. Not enough sleep.. Each day never even sleep for more than 5 hours.. Can u imagine? I was damm tired that i slept in the powerboat and almost fell off from the boat.. Weather was bad too.. I am BURNT! Now I have a sun-glass tan-lined on my face.. damm ugly.. I need to wear because my eyes was swollen.. sighs! so sad.. COOKED LOBSTER!!!

Let's see what happen to the past 3 days...

18 may 2007:

Went to school in the morning..

I done my pratical and i took some photos of the experiment.

The whole day was terrible for me..

Stomach hurts the whole day..

Gastric pain or stomach pain?

This feeling is rather bad for me..

I hate to fall sick..

Mood swings..

Went to Daryl's bday party with soo mei and zhilong.

When we reach there, it was damm late..

Have some food then we went out for a walk..

Zhen Hao and ZhiLong went to 7-eleven to buy breezer..

I drank 3 bottles of peach breezer..

After i drink, i vomit everything out..

Terrible feeling..

But after that my stomach didn't hurts at all..

Later in the night, when to talk around with other sailor..

The conversation was really good..

You can sure laugh out loud man..

After talking, we went to sleep..

I only sleep for 3 hours and i walke up for the SRRR event.

this is the triangular wave.

weird wave! =X

advanced RL signal generator.

what a big watch i have man! cool right? =P

STUPID darling! still can continue to play while i am suffering! bad!!!

19 may 2007:

Woke up in the morning..

Took a cab down to Singapore River for the SRRR event..

Have a nice a talking session with the taxi driver..

Was feeling rather tired, so crap alot in the taxi!

Reach the place, and saw many water polo babes and dudes!

All of them was cool man!

What hot bodies they have!

Grace was crazy over all the girls la..

Keeping peeping on them..

hahas. if sam was there, grace, i think u will be dead man!

The guys are hot man!

I just cant stop my eyes staring at them.

oppos! =X

Later in the afternoon, the canoe polo got competition.

Their match was awersome man!

grace and i were thinking to learn canoe polo too.

Below are some photos that i took when the competition was going on!

see the small tiny canoe?

fierce competition!

NTU v.s. TP

get that ball'

this is call SPORTSMANSHIP!!! =)

20 may 2007:

It is the last day of the SRRR event..

Was feeling kinda happy and relieved..

The whole day in powerboat..

NO CAP and anything..

My head is BURNT!!

My face got the sun-glass tanned line..

hahas. looks rather weird when i look my self in the mirror.

The event ends rather early..

went home straight after the event..

feeling tired and sick after staying in the sun for long hours.

that's all for these 3 days.

take care guys!

2007-05-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

1KG down!!!

today is rather a tired day. lesson starts from 8a.m and ends at 5p.m. i was having diarroea in the morning and i cant stop but to shit! lol. this is worst. the minute i stand up and step out of the toilet, i feel like shitting again! wth... MY ASSHOLE HURTS! after that, i forced myself to school and in the afternoon i shit again. did i eat anything wrongly?

After school, i went gym with darling, soo mei and zhilong again. we jogged on the treadmill for 15mins. then after went to do other equipments. i am tired! whole week having physical training. nevermind, i will endure! i can do it. is only the matter of wanting or not. =)

tommor, going for daryl's chalet! then saturday and sunday going for SRRR thing. i am really tired! that's all. i am going to sleep now! not enough sleep for the past few nights! good nights! take care guys! =)

darling, remember to take ur medicine. dont want to hear ur coughing again. love u. muack.

2007-05-16T22:17:00.000+08:00

FAT girl on the street...

Today, school was rather tired for me. i am supposed to have lesson at 8a.m but i reach school at 8.30a.m. i was late for lesson again. My mood for today is horrible. I get damm pissed up with very small thing. Maybe is not enough sleep,plus i am having gastric pain the night before. The feeling was horrible. You wont to try it, i guess. lol.

Today, i had my maths quiz. guess how much did i scored? i got 30/100!!! can u imagine? i click on the wrong buttom and all the answer was wrong and i didnt bother to check and so i just click on the submit. There goes my quiz! dumb blond. zzz. nevermind, i noe how to do the quiz can le. =) After the quiz, the lecturer asks her to do tutorial 3 qns 1 & 2 . She says that if we come finish, she will not let us off for another lesson. This make me think that i am back to secondary schools life. The times when all teacher are chasing students for homework. I really miss my secondary school life. running around and making fun of ppl is my daily routine. lol. seems so fun la. can i go back to the times when i was wearing my uniform. =P

after everything, i accompany my classmates for lunch but i didnt eat all. i am on diet! i cant eat that much. lol. i want to lose weight! =) i can do it! endure man! then after eating, went for extra lesson. after that, i went for my training. i manage to jog 6 sounds. we do static training - pushes up, crutches, sit-ups.

when training is over, i went food court 3 for dinner. i ate ban mian and fruit juice. isnt it a healthy dinner? =X hahas. darling, going to scolds me again. coz i keep eating alot. =P hahas. tommor, i going gym again. yeah! i want to lose weight. hahas.that's all for today, i am feeling tired. take care guys. rest well. hope to see all of u. =)

QUEK ZHEN HAO! I LOVE U FOREVER!

2007-05-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

I am FAT!!! I need to slim down! hahas. Zhen Hao wants me to slim down! can u imagine? He wants me to slim down 2kg each week. CRAZY right? lol. But now? i really on diet la. i also wants to slim down. Zhen Hao says that if i become FAT then he dont want me anymore. so sad! lol. just kidding la. =P Tommor i going gym with Zhen Hao, Soo Mei and Zhi Long. hahas. Soo Mei also fat la, so she wants to slim down also. whereas, zhilong wants to train his muscles. yeah! tommor i am going to exercise. so happy. quite looking forward to it. because it have been so long ever since i started having physical training. =X tommor, i will work my fats out man. i believe i can do it. ENDURE!!!

tommor i stay in the clubroom untill damm late. about 8.45p.m then i leave school to go kumon. when i was on the train going to serangoon, daddy called me ask me if i am going for kumon. guess what? i dont need go home by myself coz daddy fetching me home. hahas. today, i reach home at 10p.m. then went to take a hot bathe and sat down to have dinner. and now! after doing the things, i am here blogging. =)

that's all for today, i going back to watch my show - Taiyou No Uta (japanese show) sorry for the short post. lol. =) take care guys! hope to see all of u soon. smiles always. =)

DARLING, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-13T20:13:00.000+08:00

emoing!!!

i am really damm pissed off today. everything go wrong! i dont what had happen to me. i really feel like shit la. fuck off man! what had i done? what am i to u? u happy then u treat damm good but when u are angry, u treat like ur chu qi tou? what's all this? i know u are not angry with me at all. but the words u put me are like scolding me la. i cant stand it! scold all the vulguarities to me? arghz! hate all this man! i dont even think that u shd say call this to ur gf la. how do u think i will feel? i tell u seriously la. i really get damm affected by what u say each time. what must u be like this? u say i dont understand how u feel this morning? sorry ar! i know how u feel la. is that i nv show out only. u also say that i nv accompany u at all when u are sitting alone? excuse me. i am helping to rig the laser and the pico and taking out all the equipments la. i think u shd understand this lor. is not i dont want to accompany u but is i cant. i really dont noe what to do. sad sad! now, i just feel like crying out loud so that everyone can hear my cries!!! what's all this? i am not trying to get any attention from anyone la.

After ytd's promises u made to me, i thought everything will be fine. as in our relationship will get even better. but it seems that i am wrong again. i dont want to quarrel anything with u at all. but it seems that we will always quarrel over very small stuffs. why is it so? can u tell me what to do? i am really in a lost la. if the problem lies with me, please tell me. if i can change, i will defaintely change. you noe what in my mind now? i dont think i am fit to be ur gf la. i dont even noe how to make u happy when u are angry or sad. i will only add oil to the fire. and like what u say, i like to go against in what u say. arghz! i really cant be a gf as u think. i always make u jealous! what a bad gf am i? fuck man. arghz!!! my mind is exploding! can i scream at my top of my voice? AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....AAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! can anyone teach me how to do? how to make my bf happy? how not to quarrel? how???

XINNI IS SAD BECAUSE YOU MAKE HER SAD!!!

why all this things had to happen? i am really damm stressed! tomor i am having my object oriented programming practical test!!! until now, i still dont even know a single shit at all. what am i doing? studies is going down hill too? arghz!!! tommorrow's test, i will sure screwed it up! fail the whole paper man! arghz... what can i say? all the best to myself man. i dont wish to add on anymore! that's all for today! i am pissed! fuck sia! =(

XINNI IS SUFFERING FROM SERIOUS INJURIES IN THE MIND!!! HELP HER!

2007-05-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

Are you a stranger to me???

Today went out shopping with mummy. i bought 1 tank top from topshop and ear-rings. hahas. so happy la. so long never go out with mummy le. she was like complaining that everytime. so today, she asks me to go out shopping with her, so i just went. guess what? today my mummy suppose buy clothes but end up i am the one who buys clothes. hahas. mummy, i love u. =)

Haven't been going out with mummy for so long. The feeling is like kinda strange to me. bcoz it have been a long ever since i go out with only my mummy. can u imagine? in the mrt, i dont know what to talk to her. I keep wanting to find a topic to talk to her. but it just dont come to my mind. ends up, throughout the ride, i was listening to my mp3 and my mummy was reading her own book. woah... it just feel so weird to me. It's like telling ppl that i only know my mum for 1 weeks or less. can u imagine i got no topic to talk to my mum? i dont think i am fit to be her daughter at all. never given so care and concern to her. what's my reason for this? i am jsut too busy in school?or i have been spending most of my times with my friends rather than my family? Last time, i will always have family dinner with my parents. no matter what. but now? i just choose to eat out with friends rather than eating at home with my parents. what happen to me? nowadays, things get even worst! i choose to go home late rather than go home straight after school. i keep telling my friends that i dont feel like going home so early. what lead to all this? sighs! even my boyfriend scolds me for this. He is worrying at home whether am i back home, but where am i? i am enjoying outside with friends. sorry darling... woah... what's all these? getting from bad to worst? or what? i am tired! i hate to be at home. hear all the nagging and quarrelling sounds? all this make me CRAZY!!! arghz... sorry daddy, you will always call me to make sure i am safely back home. i make everyone worry for me. especially my parents and darling. sorry guys! i will change for the better.

That's all for today. take care guys!

rest well. =)

2007-05-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

DARLING I LOVE YOU!!!

我爱你!!!

ZHEN HAO, I LOVE YOU!!!

我爱你!!!

YOU ARE MY DEAREST DARLING!!!

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING YOU GIVE ME, I APPRECIATED IT.

2007-05-09T20:21:00.000+08:00

How am i feeling now? i am sick! everything seems going so wrong.. my head is spinning round and round.. the feeling of vomitting is horrible.. i hate being sick.. not good at all.. anyone cares for me when i am sick? who man? him? ya.. he will and he will just msg me me and ask if i am alright. okay fine. today, i end school at 11a.m. accompany my friend to food court 1 to have lunch but i didnt have my lunch with them. at about 12 plus, i went to meet him and have lunch together with him. guess what? when i reach clubroom, he wasnt there at all. i dont even see a single shadow of him.. nevermind, i call kian tat to open the clubroom for me but he didnt answer my call. so indeed, i have to wait at the door for him. when he reach there, teng lui came to clubroom room and open the door. then, i went to have lunch with him and teng lui.. after lunch, we went back to clubroom and slag. because 3.30p.m got committee meeting in the clubroom. so i just have to wait inside. in the midst of waiting, i continue to watch 200 pounds beauty. after that i was feeling damm tired and i took a rest.. he was sleeping.. after that, i have the meeting and went dinner with mel, tenglui and chee leng. i regret having dinner. now, i am suffering.. the feeling of vomitting is really terrible. hate it to the core man! i am sick! i am tired! i am dying.. and now, i am there blogging when i am suppose to be doing my tutorial. arghz! that's all. hey guys, please take care of urself. rest well. =)

* darling, pls take care of urself. your cough has been getting worst! drink lots of water and take your medicine according to the timing. love you always. *hugs&kisses*

2007-05-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

love u...

a warm soft cheek landed on mine.. a sweet feeling rushed through my body as he whispered in my ear.. it felt as if we were sharing a sercret that the rest of the world didn't know.. i smiled to myself as i looked into his eyes and wondered is it fate that we met?

i love him.

as days passed, i realised that i am really in love in him. love, its such an undescrible feeling. when i look into his eyes, i feel as if i've known him my whole life. when i'm in his arms, i just wanna to hold him as tight as possible and make sure i never let it go.. the feeling is powerful and scary.. the moments i open my eyes, the first thing i want to do is to look at him.. he is the one that will be with me to support and motivate me.. he will be with me for my life.. i just love him so much..

today i took mrt with him.. then he told me something damm shocking. guess what? going to australia to study for 2 years or going australia got sailing training for 1 year? omg?! how can i take it in such a go? after hearing, i stop for awhile.. am i dreaming or am i afraid of something? i know for myself. i am very dependent on my bf. so can u imagine the life without him when actually we are so in love with each other? woah... i am just too dependent on him.. i need to grow up.. i will support u in what u do. no matter how far u go or even go long u go.. please dont get too emotional when u tell me all these things. i am just concern for u. dont worry darling, i will always be there for u.

throughout these fews days, things have been going on smoothly.. we can get along better than before.. this is what makes me happy.. i really hope all this honeymoon periods will go on forever and never stops.. i dont wish for anything.. i only wants him to be with me forever. this is how much i love him..

i'm afraid to lose what i have now.. i've given all my heart.. i've taken a gamble.. i've decided to jump into the unknown.. if i gona to lose this bet, everything will be gone.. i trust and put my whole heart into this relationship..

come what it may..

i gave u my whole heart. don't let me down. i love you.

me!

darling and me.

what a blurr look u have, my dear?

arghz! u spoilt my photo! hahas. =)

2007-04-29T19:22:00.000+08:00

Burnt!!!

3 days of camp had passeed.

Although this camp is tired,

I enjoyed alot.

I am the GL(group leader) of the Freshman.

All my group members are just so high like me.

lolx. We laugh and joke and were making fun of each other.

omg?! We are all the crazy sailors.

This camp is rather tired.

Many things had happen.

My mood become very low.

I just feel like crying at that moment.

And true enough, i broke down.

I can't stand it anymore.

The problem is i am not in the wrong but u keeping blaming me.

What's wrong?

You don't trust me?

Sometimes i just dont understand u.

I'm tired.

I don noe what to say.

speechless...

stressed...

sleeply...

i want to sleep.

My eye is swollen and i am burnt.

sighs!

good night eveyone. have a good rest. take care. =)

2007-04-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

sorry guys! i am just so lazy to update. =P

ytd went to maryann house. there's a small party for the sailors at her hus ytd but so sad! only 6 turn up! so pathetic man. hahas. Although so little ppl turn up for the party, but i enjoy myself. hahas. guess what? i was damm high again. ytd i really feel like floating in the air man! lolx. i cant walk again. i am flying. lolx. =X zhen hao was trying to tame me down but what did i did? i resisted again. i am sorry. i was playing drinking games and all of them point at me! and yet i got to drink. hahas. then i played zai yuan with jk and maryann. i practically lose the whole game. when ever i lose, i need to drink. so that's how i am high!!! hahas. i have done alot of stupid thing when i am so high. =P

To someone who know what i am toking about!
sorry for what i have said ytd's night. i know whatever things i said is hurting. i ask whether did u remember what i say but i declined. maybe u really can't remember a single thing but i have a feeling that u noe what i have say but u choose not to remember anything at all. i know i have hurt u. i am sorry. if u really remember everything, i hope u just treat it as although i am mad. once again, my dear, i am really sorry.

that's all for today, i am really really tired after going to safyc to help out. i am going to bed now. good night guys! take care. see u guys soon! love u! =)

2007-04-03T16:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

So many things had happen! hahas. first of all is my BIRTHDAY! This year got 2 groups of friends celebrate my bday for me. secondary school friends and sailors. thanks guys. i really appreciate it. =) hmmx. where do i start?

29 March 2007, Thursday

29 march is a day that something happen. lolx. am i in love again? am i doing the right thing? everything will move on smoothly. i guess so. oppos! =P hahas. everyone can do it why cant i? lolx. OKOK! start with what happen on 29/03/07. Today went out with grace to buy her TV stand. After buying the TV stand, we went to catch a movie - Mr Bean's holiday. tou tou !! hahas. While we are waiting for the movie, guess who we saw? the guy that is wearing blue shorts, white shirt and caring a crumpler bag. hahas. its Jun Khee lahx. He was with his friends. Have a chat with him on the phone and we went into the cinema for our show. lol. Stupid burr make me so high lahx. the show haven even started both of us already laugh like siao char bo. hahas. Burr its cold in here. whenever grace is around, both of us will just go crazy! this is not the first time that both of us were so HIGH! =P When we were watching the movie, we laugh out our lungs! but u know something? IS BEYOND OUR CONTROL TO LAUGH!!! omg?! u will think i am crazy lahx but what to do? i am siao char bo. this is xinni. if you happen to see a xinni tat dont talk at all then this wouldn't be the xinni that you all know! hahas. =D After movie, i went down for FO camp meeting. i was late for the meeting and the meeting ends roughly late. when i reach home is like 10.30p.m. i didn't have my dinner and i went off to my dreamland.
OKOK! i will stop here.

30 March 2007, Friday

Went to work in the morning and went for to meet friend after work. lolx. we went to watch movie and have our lunch. hahas. today, i seems so honoured that someone is treating me to watch movie. hahas. so HAPPY sia. oppos! =P After movie, he went to meet his friends at city hall planning to have dinner at New York but ends up they didn't manage to have together. OKOK! what am i saying? nevermind. i went off after the movie and headed home! i am back home early. that's why mummy never nags at me. hahas. *winks winks* =)

31 March 2007, Saturday

Today went down to poly marina to help out for the kuo chuan's event. Meet jooting in the morning and went down to poly marina together. OMG?! We are not late in fact we are early. lolx. At about 9a.m, the students reach poly marina. I went to help ben to draw the point of sail. In conclusion, my drawing SUX! lolx. nevermind. After teaching them how to rig the boats, we launch the pico out. The wind is damm light can even sail man! hahas. when there is strong wind, i complain! when there is light, i also complain! XINNI! what the hell u actually want? lolx. =P when i was out there, i taught 1 girl. she is a fast learner. hahas. nono. is actually i am a good coach! hahas. =P NO WIND! and the stupid powerboats were still speeding around! WTF! do u guys know that is so dangerous? and do u guys even care for the safety for the girls? woah!! whatever! told them not to speed around but somehow they just continue to do it. they think that it damm shiok and cool to drive and speed at the same time but i dont think so lor! make me so fed up sia! zzz. something i really dont understand! no liscense = no driving! but why people still can drive? hmmx... i also dont noe lahx, nevermind. i am only just curious. forget it. *when u read this, pls dont ask me anything about it* =) After everything had ended, we went to clementi food court to have our dinner. grace, ben and me order chicken chop whereas kahloong ordered 1 big chicken. jooting ordered hor fan. hahas. the hor fan is nice when u only order 1 plate from the auntie. =) the auntie is just so biased! lolx. after dinner, i went back home! =)

1 April 2007, Sunday

Today is April's Fool! This year i didn't got trick by anyone. hahas. This shows something - Xinni had become more smart. lolx. but the silors still call me DUMB BLOND! hahas. today got no training, so stay at home the whole day rotting in front of lappy. =X Nothing much happen today, so that's all. =)

2 April 2007, Monday

Today wake up late in the morning and recieve a call from maryann. she asks me if want to go out and meet out for lunch. since i also got nothing to do, so i agree to meet her up. =) meet her and marc tay at orchard mrt station. when i saw marc tay and the first thing he says, make my face damm RED!!! lolx. make me so paiseh lahx. we went far east to eat chicken rice. but i didn't eat. after that marc wants to go search for hp models so we went lor. After that, we went different ways. maryann and i went shopping and decided to call grace down to meet us. when grace reach town, we went starbucks to chill. we bitch again! hahas. so fun. ytd 3 of us are so high lahx. laugh damm loud! hahas. we cant be together man, we will just get so high. lolx. we sat at starbucks for about 3 hours ++. then we headed home lor. =)

3 April 2007, Tuesday

today is rather boring for me. woke up at 11++ from 12p.m to now, i have been rotting in front of lappy for long hours. i am just so bored! i got nothing to do. i want to go out but i am just too lazy to go out. hahas. =P i recieve a call in the afternoon, they say tht my schedule is cancelled. hahas. no work for me! woah so happy! which means i dont need to wake up as early as 4.30a.m. hahas. =) nothing much to blog anymore. that's all. =)

Heys guys, thank for everything, i appreciate it. =) smiles always. hope to see u guys! take care! =)

2007-03-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

Boring day at home!

today wake up at 7.30a.m. so early in the morning. went to have a bathe and lie on my bed. after a few minutes later, i dozed off. hahas. not bad hor! =X Then, mum wake me up and ask me to call to the singtel coz my house phone got problem. zzz. so WAKE UP so UNWILLING. hahas. den the person came to my house at about 11.30a.m. He came and check everything and found out that my mum's room cable BURNED OUT. hahas. the whole cable become BLACK. hahas. so now my house left with only 3 phones now. =P luckily my room's phone is okay otherwise at night cannot chat on the phone le. =)

After the person had left, i went to cook lunch for my brother and myself. hmmx. i cook bee hoon soup. hahas. taste so nice. yummy! my brother finished up one big bowl! hahas. this proved that my cooking is actually not that bad. hahas. *so proud of my myself* lolx. After lunch, i sit in front of my lappy. rotting happily... lolx. i have nothing to do.BORED! can anyone kills my boredom? =X i want to go out! i want to do something. i can't stand it anymore. hahas. went kumon just now. so tired and now i am home blogging. bored day will end soon. lolx. tomor will be a busy day for me. hahas. looking forward to tommor. =)

shall end here! my life is so BORING! Bring me out of this boring life. colour up my life. =)
take care guys! love u guys! smiles always. =)

2007-03-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

Feeling down...

I failed my bronze mellation once again. This time round, i managed to pass my theory but i STILL failed my practical test. sighs! I dont noe how to put to my dad. He paid for all my swimming fees and test fees as well. sighs! why can't i just past my BM? i can't even swim a proper stroke now! WTF. freestyle and breaststroke damm slow now! arghz! My swimming friend, michael, asked me why am i giving myself so much stressed. when he threw this question to me, i really dont noe how to answer. SHOCKED? STUNNED? zzz. I really can't do things well. swimming is something i love to u since young but now with my attitdue going on. If my instructor gives me alot of chances to re-take my BM, I will still fail. sighs! What on earth am i doing? i really dont noe how to answer this question! I am tired. I want to sleep. Good night everyone. take care.

2007-03-19T11:21:00.000+08:00

Reflections!!!

SPSYC training camp was held on 16th to 18th march. I went for the camp and i realised i have really learn alot of things throughout the camp.

On the first day of the camp, i took everything very lightly. We jogged and played soccer and captain's ball. I really enjoy myself although there are only the 6 of us who had come on the first day. Later in the night, other sailors came for the camp. At night, we played some games which really put a test on you - leadership, patience and others. i had learnt that there must always be 1 leader who lead the whole group. if everyone wants to lead, things will end up more difficult to solve. Patience is really the things the i need to improve on. If thing doesn't solve by sometime, i will get frustrated and ltr i will break down with tears. This is what happen to me on the second day of the camp.

On the second day of the camp, i cried. I can't even sail properly. I feel stressed and tired. i really don't know what had happen to me. Things seems to be going so wrong. Sorry guys. I think i have show attitdue to all of u. Sorry. I won't give up. i will strived for the best.

On the third day of the camp, i tried sailing laser. omg?! i really not easy man! i can't even upright the boat. i try my best to upright the boat. hahas. when u really can upright the boat all by yourself, u will really feel happy! hahas. Although is tough, but after all the hard work, u really can feel the success of it. =)

Hey guys, i really want to thank all of you being with me and support me throughout the camp. =) i really enjoy myself! hahas. burr... it's cold in here. * i can't forget how my poor spongebob is being torture! hahas. i am really very happy when all the sailors say that all the foods is nice. lolx. i know you may think that this is a small issue but to me, i am really proud of myself. hahas. that's all. hope everyone had a great day. rest well. see all of u soon. =) love u guys! MUACKZ!

Spongebob!!! i love you man!

ME!!! =)

AHHHHHH!!! they don't allow me to come down. =(

my GARCE! shuai right? =)

burr.. its cold in here!

see! that's the ramp that we use to bring down our boat. =)

2007-03-10T19:46:00.000+08:00

Pig day...

OMG?! I am getting fatter and fatter. Eat and eat, none stop. but, when i eat, it make me feels HAPPY!!! I just eating so much! but i hate to gain weight, because it will makes me looks FAT and SHORT!!! lol. =X what to do? so i have to EXERCISE to reduce all the fats. lolx. Planning to do sit-ups at home and swim. hahas. i am determine to do it. =) hahas. ENDURE man!!! Today, went to IT show and saw maryann! hahas. She is working at IT show. i went to bought a printer, which cost only $88., with the function of print, copy and scan. You can also print out photos sia. not bad right? hahas. the brand of the printer is Brother. hahas. *why aren't any brands that is called Sister?! hahas. lolx. hmmx... maybe next time i will open one man! hahhas. =X

next week will be a tiring week. help out for yulong's event and training camp. so much things coming up. all these will keep my days busy and tiring man! hahas. i will updated for more next week. take care guys. =) love you all. MUACKZZ.

2007-03-03T19:41:00.000+08:00

It had been so long ever since i blog. I am just too lazy to blog. lolx. so many had happened. let me just post randomly babx. =)

Me and Cheng Jian Ming =)

mei nui and shuai ge =P

i love his back view. =)

see now! the front view kena sai. lolx. =X

trying to put a model?

what's the post for?

cousin and 3rd aunt

Cheng Jian Li! yours card isn't that good at all. =)

opoos? did u win all my money? hahas.

cousin forever man!
i love all of you.

Jena and my brother. =)

jena: stop acting cute lahx. lol. smiles =)

dragon and jena

horse and my brother

can i kiss you? MUACKZ

is me! smiles =)

That's all. will updated tommor then. =)
take care guys. love u all.

2007-02-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

dreaming in process...

mood change suddenly. thinking in process. hate myself doing this type of thing. it just sux. this type of feeling just cant leave me. its hurting. i want to tok to you but i just don't dare to tok to you. why? why am i so coward? what happen to the old engeretic xinni? why? now, i just feel so idiotic. hate the way i am living. hate it to the core. fcuk man! i know ppl will say aiya forget it lei. no point at all. but think again before u say. it damm difficult. this type of feeling keep coming back as and when. it's hurting. when i look through all the memories, everything seems piercing into my heart. it's pain! i can't take it anymore. can u please take away from me? take everything. can i go for brainwash? if it really can help, i sincerely willing to try it. sighs. how long already? why i just cant stop thinking this fcuking things? it just keep appearing into me. sickening man! arghz! i am really not that strong at all. what happen to xinni? she had changed damm alot. the old xinni is strong! but now? she is so freaking weak. i really hate to be like that. i want to change. everyday go out meet ppl, have to pretend that nothing had happen. it just look so fake. fcuk off man! i am tired. collapsing soon? i need to stop thinking le. otherwise i need i will just go insane babx. i think i am the most stupid gal int he world. think about someone when the person won't even will care to look at u. sighs. sob sob. tears just roll down my cheeks. i had this long enough le. i don't want to be like this anymore. ----> how many times did i says this? sighs. nevermind. i just don't know how to tidy up my feelings probably. everything just sux! I REALLY HATE MYSELF!!! PLEASE TAKE EVERYTHING AWAY FROM ME AND DON'T EVER RETURN TO ME AGAIN!!! I DON'T NEED ANYTHING!!! I DON'T NEED ANYONE TO PITY ME!!! ARGHZ!

2007-02-10T12:26:00.000+08:00

HAVOC...

Yesterday night was having party at MaryAnn's house. Having alot of fun man. i just love the drinking game so much. hahas. so fun man. laugh and laugh. i was being sabotage by my wonderful sailors. hahas. make me drink and drink man. stomach is bloated up and so much gas inside. hahas. it was fun man! =) ytd i wasnt that drank man. still able to walk around by myself. hehe. after the drinking game, some of them went home. left only me, mel, ben, gary, mary, grace, kian tat, denesh, linus, jun khee and of course Maryann. =) after they went home, we played shots. hahas. i drank the shot but i just cant take it. its burning man. *hot hot* xD
gary was playing with junkhee and he lost to him. so he need to drink. OMG?! Gary: your face is as red as a chilli. lol. super red. =P good blood circulation. heathly man. =)

around 3+, met lincoln. first time i saw him as a real person. lolx. hehe. =P he looks so cute. hahas. he and his smiles. =) aiyo. get to talk to him for awhile. after that, went back to MA's hus. lolx. *body inside, heart outside?* hahas. oppos! what the hell am i saying. aiyo.......

i am feeling damm tired. *yawn yawn* ok lahx. take care guys. love u all always. =) muackxx.

2007-02-06T19:37:00.000+08:00

This the ARTWORK by kai. He drew all these using computer, not hand-draw hor. =)

zodiac 1: RAT

zodiac 2: OX

zodiac 3: TIGER

zodiac 4: RABBIT

zodiac 5: DRAGON

zodiac 6: SNAKE

zodiac 7: HORSE

zodiac 8: SHEEP

zodiac 9: MONKEY

zodiac 10: CHICKEN

zodiac 11: DOG

zodiac 12: PIG

This is what kai had drew. what do u all think? nice mahx? =)

i find all these pictures all so cute. haha. thank man!

2007-02-06T12:07:00.000+08:00

Which one are you?

Does your name begin with: A

U are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action.You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get.You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up-front person. You often don't get hints & you ever pass any. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is! intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important for you. You tend to be very Practical, & not very emotional Your choices are very good & can only lead to trouble. You are very self satisfied & egoistic.

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Does your name begin with: B

You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced, wined, and dined. You are very happy to receive gifts as an expression of the affection of your lover. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You are private in your expression of endearments, and particular when it comes to love. You will hold off until everything meets with your approval. You can control your appetite & feelings. You require new sensations and experiences. You are willing to experiment.

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Does your name begin with: C

You are a very social individual, and it i s important to you to have a relationship. You require closeness and togetherness. You want the object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good-looking. You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very sensual, Needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot be achieved, you have the ability to hold out on affection until you receive this.. You are an expert at controlling your desires and doing without.

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Does your name begin with: D

Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full Steam ahead in your suit. You do not give up your quest easily. You are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on. You are highly passionate, loyal, and intense in your involvement's, sometimes possessive and jealous. You are very sharp & talented often with sense of humour. When people bother to look deep inside they cannot resist what they see. You are stimulated by the eccentric and unusual, having a free and open attitude. You get jealous of other people and lose your temper .

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Does your name begin with: E

Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and a companion You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while-it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important. But once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. You will fall asleep with a good book. sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book to a lover)

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Does your name begin with: F

You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are a born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are a favourite fantasy past time. You can be a very generous lover.

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Does your name begin with: G

You are fastidious, seeking perfection within yourself and your lover. You respond to a lover who is yourintellectual equal or superior, and one who can enhance your status. You are sensuous and know how to reach the peak of stimulation, because you work at it meticulously. You can be extremely active-never tiring out. Your duties and responsibilities take precedence over everything else. You may have difficulty getting emotionally close to people.

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Does your name begin with: H

You seek a mate who can enhance your zest for life ,fun & everything You seek for. You will be very generous to your lover once you have Attained a commitment. You are very affectionate & very strong. Your gifts are actually an investment in your partner. Before the commitment, though, you tend to be very careful with your every move and equally cautious in your involvement's often as you believe that you have to look out fo r yourself. You are a sensual and patient lover. You will hold off till everything meets your full approval. You are a perfectionist, hard to satisfy and strong in your beliefs. Not influential, you always stand your ground. People can always count on you to stand by them in a crisis. You are a dreamer with/ a passion for life.

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Does your name begin with: I (mran)

You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... even worshiped. You enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You like necking spend hours just touching feeling & exploring. You look for lovers who know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless that amateur wants a tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having your de sires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new modes of expression. You bore easily and thus require adventure and change. Your commitments don't last very long & you often tend to stray. Loyalty is not one of your strong points. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are sometimes downright lustful.

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Does your name begin with: J

You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. (you could dance all night.) You respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game.You can carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own every so often. You will carry on long- distance relation ships with ease. You are idealistic and need to believe in love. You have a need to be nurtured deep within.

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Does your name begin with: K

You are secretive, self-contained, and shy. You are very sexy, sensual, and passionate, but you do not let on to this. Only in intimate privacy will this part of your nature reveal itself. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the right person to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind-natured & sweet, which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.

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Does your name begin with: L

You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your expression of love and are willing to take chances, try new sexual experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. "You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated ".

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Does your name begin with: M

You may appear innocent, unassuming and shy; but we know that Appearances can lie. When it comes to sex, you are no novice but something of a skilled technician. You can easily go to extremes, though, running the gamut from insatiability to boredom with the whole idea of love. You can be highly critical of you mate, seeking perfection in both of you. It is not easy to find someone who can meet your standards. You have difficulty expressing emotions and drawing close to lovers. You are often selfish, thinking you are always right no matter what. You never give in. Winning is your prime desire- at any cost. You often forget friends and family and you live for the moment.

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Does your name begin with: N

You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you Throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all-consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense. You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of energy is inexhaustible. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You also enjoy mothering your mate. You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself, in your head. You are very imaginative.

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Does your name begin with: O

You are very interested in fun activities yet secretive and shy about your desires. You can re-channel much of your energy into making money and/or seeking we. You can easily have extended periods of celibacy. You are a passionate, compassionate lover, requ iring the same qualities From your mate. Love is serious business; thus you demand intensity, diversity and is willing to try anything or anyone. Sometimes your passions turn to possessiveness, which must be kept in check.

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Does your name begin with: P

You are very conscious of social proprieties. You wouldn't think of Doing anything that might harm your image or Reputation. Appearances count. Therefore, you require a good-looking partner. You also require an intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your partner as your enemy...a good fight stimulates those vibes. You are relatively free of hang- ups.You are willing to experiment and try new ways of doing things.You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and need a good deal of physical gratification.

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Does your name begin with: Q

You require constant activity and stimulation. You have tremendous physical energy. It is not easy for a partner to keep up with you. You are an enthusiastic lover and tend to be attracted to people because of their ethnic groups. You need romance, hearts and flowers, and conversation to turn you on and keep you going.

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Does your name begin with: R

You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone who can keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal-the smarter the better. You are turned on more quickly by a great mind than by a great body. However, physical attractiveness is not very important to you. You have to be proved to be worthy for a partner. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic.

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Does your name begin with: S

For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the planet.. You like being the centre of attention. You are very caring sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the rightperson to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind nature & sweet which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.

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Does your name begin with: T

You are very sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. You like someone who takes the lead. You get turned on by music, soft lights & romantic thoughts. You fantasize & tend to fall in & out of love soon. When in love you are romantic, idealistic, mushy & extremely. You enjoy havin g your senses & your feelings stimulated, titillated & teased. You are a great flirt. You can make your relationships fit your dreams, all in your own head. Once you put your mind to something you manage to stand by it and see your dreams through. You aren't very good at expressing your feelings. You like things your own way. You do not like change, you like to hold on to things. This may not always be good because if given an opportunity things may develop into great things. You work your way to the top. Attention must be given to what others say because even though you don't want to hear it their advice may turn out to save your life. !

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Does your name begin with: U

You are enthusiastic & at your happiest when in love. When not in love you're in love with love and always looking for someone to adore. You see romance as challenge. You are a roamer & needs adventure, excitement freedom. You enjoy giving gifts & looking good. You are willing to put others feelings above yours.

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Does your name begin with: V

You are individualistic & you need freedom, space & excitement. You wait till you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing someone means psyching her/him out. You feel a need to get into his/her head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to eccentric types. You believe that age is no barrier. You are good at responding to danger, fear & suspense.

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Does your name begin with: W

You are very proud, determined & refuses to take no for an answer when it come to love. Your ego is at stake all the time. You are romantic, idealistic, often in love with love itself, not seeing your partner for who she or he really is. You feel deeply about love & tends to throw all of your self into a relationship. Nothing is too good for your lover. You like playing love games.

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Does your name begin with: X

You need constant stimulation because you get bored quickly. You can handle more than 1 relationship at a time with ease. You can't shut off your mind. You can do 2 things at once. You are very talented.

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Does your name begin with: Y

You are sensual & very independent. If you can't have it your way, you will forget the whole thing. You want to control your relationships which doesn't work out too well. You respond to physical stimulation. However if you can make money you will give up the pleasures of the flesh for the moment. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic.

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Does your name begin with: Z

You are very romantic but show feels that to love means to suffer. You wind up serving your mate & attracting people who have u nusual trouble. You see yourself as a lover's saviour.

Which baby are you?

JANUARY

Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize Hardworking and productiveSmart, neat and organised
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reservedHighly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Loyal
Needs to improve social abilities
Easily jealous

FEBRUARY

Abstract thoughts
Loves reality and abstract
Intelligent and clever
Changing personality
Temperamental Quiet, shy and humble
Low self esteem
Honest and loyal
Determined to reach goals
Loves freedom
Rebellious when restricted
Loves aggressiveness
Too sensitive and easily hurt
Showing anger easily
Dislike unnecessary things
Loves making friends but rarely shows it
Daring and stubborn
Ambitious
Realising dreams and hopes
Sharp
Loves entertainment and leisure
Romantic on the inside not outside
Superstitious and ludicrous
Spendthrift
Learns to show emotions

MARCH

Attractive personality
Affectionate
Shy and reserved
Secretive
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
Loves peace and serenity
Sensitive to others
Loves to serve others
Not easily angered
Trustworthy
Appreciative and returns kindness
Observant and assess others
Revengeful
Loves to dream and fantasize
Loves travelling
Loves attention
Hasty decisions in choosing partners
Loves home decors
Musically talented
Loves special things
Moody

APRIL

Active and dynamic
Decisive and haste but tends to regret
Attractive and affectionate to oneself
Strong mentality
Loves attention
Diplomatic
Consoling
Friendly and solves people's problems
Brave and fearless
Adventurous
Loving and caring
Suave and generous
Emotional
Revengeful
Aggressive
Hasty
Good memory
Moving
Motivate oneself and the others
Sickness usually of the head and chest
Easily get too jealous

MAY

Stubborn and hard-hearted
Strong-willed and highly motivated
Sharp thoughts
Easily angered
Attracts others and loves attention
Deep feelings
Beautiful physically and mentally
Firm standpoint
Easily influenced
Needs no motivation
Easily consoledSystematic (left brain)
Loves to dream
Strong clairvoyance
Understanding
Sickness usually in the ear and neck
Good imagination
Good debating skills
Good physical
Weak breathing
Loves literature and the arts
Loves travelling
Dislike being at home
Restless
Not having many children
Hardworking
High spirited
Spendthrift

JUNE

Thinks far with vision
Easily influenced by kindness
Polite and soft-spoken
Having lots of ideas
Sensitive
Active mind
Hesitating
Tends to delay
Choosy and always wants the best
Temperamental
Funny and humorous
Loves to joke
Good debating skills
Talkative
Daydreamer
Friendly
Knows how to make friends
Abiding
Able to show character
Easily hurt
Prone to getting colds
Loves to dress up
Easily bored
Fussy
Seldom show emotions
Takes time to recover when hurt
Brand conscious
Executive
Stubborn
Those who loves me are enemies
Those who hates me are friends

JULY

Difficult to fathom and to be understood
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Has reputation
Easily consoled
Honest
Concern about people's feelings
Friendly
Approachable
Very emotional
Unpredictable and temperamental
Moody and easily hurt
Witty and sarkySentimental
Neither forgives nor forgets
Caring and loving
Strong sense of sympathy
Judge people through observations
Loves to be alone
Always broods about the past and the old friends
Likes to be quiet
Waits for friends
Not aggressive unless provoked
Loves to be loved
Easily hurt and takes long to recover
Overly concerned
Puts in effort in work

AUGUST

Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defence
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses
Learns to relax
Hasty and rushy
Romantic
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends

SEPTEMBER

Suave and compromising
Careful, cautious and organised
Likes to point out people's mistakes
Likes to criticize
Quiet but able to talk well
Calm and cool
Kind and sympathetic
Concerned and detailed
Trustworthy, loyal and honest
Does work well
Sensitive
Thinking
Good memory
Clever and knowledgeable
Loves to look for information
Must control oneself when criticising
Able to motivate oneself
Understanding
Secretive
Loves sports, leisure and travelling
Hardly shows emotions
Tends to bottle up feelings
Choosy especially in relationships
Loves wide things
Systematic

OCTOBER

Loves to chat
Loves those who loves him
Loves to takes things at the centre
Attractive and suave
Inner and physical beauty
Does not lie or pretend
Sympathetic
Treats friends importantly
Always making friends
Easily hurt but recovers easily
Bad tempered
Selfish
Seldom helps unless asked
Daydreamer
Very opinionated
Does not care of what ot hers think
Emotional
Decisive
Strong clairvoyance
Loves to travel, the arts and literature
Soft-spoken, loving and caringRomantic
Touchy and easily jealous
Concerned
Loves outdoors
Just and fair
Spendthrift and easily influenced
Easily lose confidence

NOVEMBER

Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Thinks forward
Unique and brilliant
Extraordinary ideas
Sharp thinking
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Can become good doctors
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Secretive
Inquisitive
Knows how to dig secrets
Always thinking
Less talkative but amiable
Brave and generous
Patient
Stubborn and hard-hearted
If there is a will, there is a way
Determined
Never give up
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Loves to be alone
Thinks differently from others
Sharp-minded
Motivates oneself
Does not appreciates praises
High-spirited
Well-built and tough
Deep love and emotions
Romantic
Uncertain in relationships
Homely
Hardworking
High abilities
Trustworthy
Honest and keeps secrets
Not able to control emotions
Unpredictable

DECEMBER

Loyal and generous
Patriotic
Active in games and interactions
Impatient and hasty
Ambitious
Influential in organizations
Loves to socialize
Loves praises
Loves attention
Loves to be loved
Honest and trustworthy
Not pretending
Short tempered and egoistic
Takes high pride in oneself
Hates restrictions
Loves to joke
Good sense of humor
Logical

After reading, i think that it is rather quite true. i dont now how u all think about it. this is only a asking is not a FACT also. you can choose to believe or not. =)

2007-02-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

BOred bOred!!!

exams still bored?

aren't am i suppose to be at home studying?

omg?! i really hate exam period. time really pass so slow!

i can't wait to finish my exams.

after exam i can do so many things.

go out with friends,parties,swimming... ...

staying at home the whole day.

studying the whole day.

digital electronics is hard!

hate it to the core man.

but, i will still work hard for it.

jia you man!

really don't noe what to blog about.

i am BORED!

hey guys. remember to jio me go out hor, after my exams.

just ring me man!

wo yi ding hui qu de.

hahahs... =)

that's all for today.

take care guys.

*HugSs&KiSSes*

that's me! SIAO CHAR BO

nerd?

2007-01-30T14:48:00.000+08:00

29 january 2007, monday

yesterday, went out studying with kian tat and maryann. suppose to meet tat at 2p.m at khatib mac but i was late. lolx. 3 plus then reach there. after reaching there, settle down and started studying. i studied PEEE. omg?! i realised that i still don't noe anything. sighs. i don't want to forward any module at all. better study hard. at about 4plus, tat went for a run - 5km hor. hahas. but when he come back from run, he still looks the same. hahas. after awhile, jun khee came. he taught me PEEE. hahas. understand alot from him. after that went to jk's hus to watch the peak. saw his ypunger brother. hahas. same size as him also. lolx. oppos! sorry. i am just stating the facts. hahas. 10 plus, we left his hus and he also return to his camp. i took bus home with MA. chat awhile with her. after that, i went home. woah... what a tiring day. but i really have fun. i laugh and laugh. thank guys for accompanying me. love u all.

btw! i am not a BLUR SOTONG! lolx. not STUPID either. =)

take care guys.

junkhee's cupboard. neat right? =P

what is jk doing?

MA is acting cute. muhahahas...

whose heart is that? =)

2007-01-28T12:52:00.000+08:00

ShOp ShOp ShOp...

yesterday,27 january 2007, went study with prem only. hahas. actually got more ppl join us to study de, but they all come so late. by the time they arrived, i will be leaving for shopping time le. =X hehe. after studying, i went to meet jooting at cityhall mrt station. we went to suntec to shop. we were finding jooting's formal wear. lolx. find and find. finally, she bought hers. 1 from iora and another from mng. hahas. she also bought a heels man! from melissa. cute shop name. yeah! i bought myself a mng jeans also. damm nice lahx. lolx. when i wear up, i look so thin. omg! xinni: ni shou le. hahas. hmmx... maybe is the mirror's problem. =X aiya. whatever. i have become thin liao lahx. hahas. =P of course will become thin lahx. swim and swim... train and train... =P

my whole leg very pain. today, went out and i wore heels. omg. walk for long hours. my leg is swollen man! pain pain. got blister also. OUCH! hahas. girls what! want to be pretty but will endure whatever pain. hahas. this is what a girl will do man! lolx. =X after buying everything, we went to surfer girl. we bought reef slipper. hahas. we bought the same pattern agin. hehe. sister izzit? lolx. =) after that,went to food replubic to eat. so many ppl. so difficult to get a seat. but ends up, we share with 1 couple. we headed home after eating. it's really a tiring day but is worth. nice feeling to shop man. spent spent!

good nitez guys! take care of urself. smiles always. =)

2007-01-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

Theraputic Feeling...

i am really a luckiest person in the world! when i am feeling down, there are some many people caring for me. i really thank them. especially joo ting. she will be there for me whenever i have problems. thank babe! thank everyone. love all of u man.

today, went to school for PEEE practical lesson. it ends at 10a.m. after that, went to far east with joo ting, joy and geraline. went to shop again. but ends up i didn't manage to get anything at all.
lolx. but i saw alot of mng jeans that i want to buy. omg! it's damm nice. lolx. hahas. maybe toomor i will be going to mng to buy jeans le. hahas. oppos! spent money again. hahas. aiya nvm lahx. i happy can liao mahx. hehe. * izzit this an excuse to make myself HAPPY?* wondering...

today, as we are walking, joy suddenly sak me 1 question that i dont even noe how to answer. guess what did she asked? xinni: how do u celebrate ur Valentine with your boyfriend? omg...! i am shocked. i don't noe what to tell her. no words come out of my mouth. i really act blur man. sighs. how stupid can i be? wild ideas just come cross my mind. i told that i will be celebrating in the park. i noe is stupid lahx, but this idea just strike me. zzz. i had already told myself, over is over. there is nothing i can do. be strong man! jiu de bu qu, xin de bu lai. hahas.

exam is round the corner. i must concentrate on my studies. i can't let anything affect my studies de. jia you man! i must also train hard for my BM. swim and swim. i will learn how to save ppl and pass my BM. sail free and swim hard! hahas. =)

nothing more to add on le. take care guys. good luck for all ur exams. jia you! =)

2007-01-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

my heart just sank down deeply once again

why must i suffer everything in one shot? do you noe it's really hurting? i don't want to noe. i rather you don't tell me than after i found out, i feel so hurt. you don't want me to wait for you anymore? i noe liao le and i noe what to do liao le. just to give up right? aiyo... xinni! u are only losing bf lei. nothing much de lahx. is not like u are losing everything. right? cheer up man! there are still so many thing to do. sighs. i am sad. i am hurt. i don't want anything else. i rather hurting. i only want PEACE! silence... nothing else. i just to be like every other girl. as simple as possible. sighs. i dont wish to add anymore things. tired. speechless. now, i just need to concentrating on my studies and my bronze mellation exam. i dont want to think anymore. just concentrating in process.

2007-01-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

MONDAY, 22 January 2007

today went out studying again with boon keat and prem. went to national library the study longue to study. omg. it's so quiet. this is really a good place to study. it can really make you study. hahas. today, we completed half the paper. this paper is real hard man. so difficult. 1 question can really "eat" all your time. spent alot of time on just 1 question. omg. really scared that this comi wednesday PEEE exam better don't be like this. otherwise... i will really die. lolx. but! xinni: you must jia you man. don't give up! you can sure do it de. =) after doing, went to meet up with zhilong and zun hao to have dinner. we went to plaza sing. went to long john silver to have dinner. hahas. guess what i eat? only fries and salsa cheese! hahas. i just love the cheese so much. i just sink inside my mouth. hahas. =P after eating, went home with my INDIAN gang also. hahas. having so much fun again. hahas. i just can't myself pinching prem. hahas. *pain pain* lolx. poor prem being bullied by me and zun hao. hehe. prem. what's that for? be a man dey! hahas. =P let's the photos do the talking.

eating while studying. *naughty naughty*

so serious sia. =X

this is boon keat. a friend that i have that i can't usually see his eye brows. =P

me! doing my past year paper. =)

2007-01-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

so many days never update my blog le. so sorry. so many had just happen. sighs. forget it. i don't wish to say anymore. =) hmmx... what did i did for the past few days? ok, let's start with friday.

FRIDAY, 19 January 2007.

early in the morning, i went to poly marina to wait for jooting to end her lesson. i don't noe where to go, so i just feel like going to PM. After jooting's lesson had ended, we went to harbourfront to have our lunch. we went to Subway to have our lunch. after eating, we headed to temasek poly. open house! TP students all are so HIGH. omg. it's so fun man. we walk around the school and met jayllod. he is TP's student so he brings us around to take a look at TP's surroundings. =) i bought my 1GB mimi SD at there. woah... i finally got mine's 1GB memory card. yeah! now i can take as much photos as i want. =) i just love taking photos. zilian. hehe. lolx. after that,we went to tampines mall to walk walk and have dinner. omg. it had been a long time ever seen i stepped in tampines mall. =X things had changed also. zzz. this is the worst mee hoon i had ever eat on that day. the meen hoon just taste so horrible. =X almost make me vomit.
we were having alot of fun while i am eating. they just cant stop crapping around. i laugh like a SEALION again. zzz. they were making fun of me lahx. zzz. make me so paiseh. coz the guys above me were looking at me. so paiseh. =X i saw rainbow on the way walking to the bus stop. so beautiful. so warming to see a rainbow. =) show you guys some photos that we had taken during that day. =)

Photos time...!

jazebel, me and chuteng.

say cheeze. =)

me!

what the expression for? =X

what does the hand sign means?

SATURDAY, 20 January 2007.

i went to nation library to studywith zun hao, meizhen and prem. we done finish 1 paper. so happy. =D can you believe? we study in the kids corner. lolx. at frst, you will feel that it quite weird while studying. but, after a while, you won't be feeling that weird anymore. =) we study Principle of electrical and electronic engineering (PEEE). we had yet to compete 1 past year paper. yeah. so happy. lolx. i really understand what i am doing. thanx guys. you all had teach me alot. =) i will jia you for my PEEE de. =P after that, we headed to the coffee shop opposite the temple at si ma lu to have our dinner. omg. the coffee shop is full of ppl. we can't find any place to sit. finally, after the long time of waiting. i finally find a place to sit. i went to order noodles. er... i don't how to say also. lolx. but is nice. i ate to bowl of noodles down. omg. piggy xinni. eat and eat. fei si ni cai chi dao. hahas. i am obease now! supper fat. lumps of fats are around my tummy. =P after eating, me, zun hao and prem walked back to little india mrt station. i have a great time walking to the mrt. enjoying so much fun although it is late at night. we talked very loudly like nobody business and i laugh damm loud lahx. hahas. lol. thank guys. love you all so much. =) hehe. as usual, i took some photos while we are studying. *i just love to take photos.*

mei zhen and zun hao discussing about the questions?

prem! what that for? sit until like that? are u at home? =X

mine study area. so messy!

i am studying. concentating with my PEEE. =)

try being a model? hahas. =D

act cute ah? muhahas...

SUNDAY, 21 January 2007.

THANK YOU DADDY.
I lOVE YOU.

hahas. guess what? today, my daddy helps me to paint my room. so nice hor. xin ku ni le, daddy. my room now really look like a PrinCess room. hahas. so pinky. hahas. but i like it. dark and light colours. it really look so compatible. show you all my room. photos time. =)

painting in process...

nice mahx? looks so pinky. =P

my books.

this is my room. i love it man. =)

2007-01-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

NO mood for anything.

went today actually to do projects. but, guess what? we didnt manage to do anything single thing. sighs. just dont noe what am i thinking now. i just dont feeling like doing anything at all. what had happen to me recently? woah... i dont noe. i really dont know at all. am i really missing someone badly? guess so. i just cant stop thinking of him. i miss him so much and it really sucks... the feeling is really horrible. our whole body is like going to explode any moment. i miss me so much... especially when i am all alone. i miss having someone to lean on... i miss laying my head on his shoulder. i miss the comforting smell of his cologne. i miss his hands... i miss his cheeky smile... i miss his everything. sighs... i need you. i want you. i still love you. i want to hug you. i want to kiss you. i want to held your hands tightly. i want i want... ...

arghz! i am going insane. just now, i went to read my old post. tell you seriously, i cried. tears just roll down my cheeks. sob sob... i miss the time that we spent together. ur cheekiness...
sighs. my chest is congested. feel like exploding. =X
25 days had passed. i still cant forget you. i cant stop myself thinking of you. its lethal. sighs.

i think i shall end here. take care guys.

2007-01-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

stomach pain...

today nearly late for Digital Electronics Labtest. woke up at 7.45a.m and my test is at 9a.m. lolx. bathe quickly and quickly get out of the house. meet zun hao and went to school together. luckily, when we reach school, it is exactly 9a.m. we are just nice for exam. =) so sad. my digital electronics labtest, i get 85%. sighs. never get 100%. =X nevermind. jiayou for the upcoming exam. =) today, i also have my autocadd labtest. hmmx... this one not too bad. =) got some help form yanhan. can you imagine, in a test you can ask people to help you? lolx. thank guys. =)

MY STOMACH VERY PAIN! zzz. drank too much of cold water again. omg. tong si wo le. pain pain. taken panadol le but still so pain. =X i can't eat anything for my dinner. stomach too pain le. sighs. nevermind lahx. just take this as a jian fei babx. since everyone says that i am very fat. hey! i got a pair of trotter lei! hehe. EXCUSE? why am i so proud of having a pair of trotter? omg! can't believe that. siao char bo. lolx. =P

took some photos today in class while waiting for autocadd's test to start. take a look of my classmates babx. =)

nice bag rite? hahas.. actually i just like the logo on the bag. =P

hey. this is the logo that i like. =) sail free man! *I LOVE SAILING*

cute rite? my doggy. hehe. my INDIAN GANG! enna mori kirai? means what are you looking in indian.

poor doggy. being struggle by yanhan. =p

zun hao: are you in coffee shop? sit until like that? hehe.

smiles =)

look who is behind me? hahas. =D

2007-01-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

hurray! i did it!

first thing in the morning, i have my gems exam. Real Estate Marketing. i don't really noe how did i fair. but i can't really finish the paper. is difficult. zzz. nevermind. over is over, no point saying it anymore. woah...! tomor having my Digital Electronics labtest. i will scored man! today, when to try out digital electronics lab. you know what? i can connect everything. 100% correct. =) so happy. yeah! after that, went to maths tutorial. after school, headed to kumon. and now, i am home blogging. lolx.

i can go for ssr(Singapore Straits Regetta). but i had told jovin that i will not be able to go for ssr. and now, i am regretting. sighs. sad. i just a chance like this. sob sob. but nevermind, maybe next time there will still be another chance? hahas. maybe... ... =X

good luck to me for my labtest tommor. i am going to score 100%. yeah! =) good luck to all of you. ideas project still got of things not done. stressed stressed! endure man! =P jia you.

that's all for today. *i am sorry that i will be deleting my previous post. i don't want to know what had happen. it will only make moody. zzz. i don't want to say anymore.* take care guys! =)

so messy! this is all my hard work! lol.

checking it again. make sure there's no mistakes. =P

final product show case. hehe. =)

boon keat trying to figuring how to connect.

everynight, i will be hugging spongebob to sleep. i really miss you so much. baby, i love you.

2007-01-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

studying in process...

early in the morning went to republic polytechnic open house. i went with jooting and jazebel. stupid ting ting told us is 9.30a.m starts so we went there at ths time. but, she was wrong. opening ceremony starts at 9.30a.m instead. the whole open house will launch at 11.00a.m. we walk around stupidly. lolx. Tan Ting Ting: you throw RP poly's face. hahas. wrong information. RP is a newly built poly. everything in the school looks so new. is air-conditioned. when i went into the library, cold air just blow onto my body. brr... brr... it's cold in here. lolx. we went around looking at different course and play with their games. so funny. i walk around asking them questions like "may i know what is the cut-off point for these courses" , "what are the job available when u graduate from the course" etc... i am like a secondary 4 students asking them about the course. so fun...! i try out making my own toothpaste. so fun! i should like taken this course. lolx. i try out how to make my own gody worm. hahas. so cute. so slummy...

after everything, went to causeway point to meet zhilong. we took mrt from woodlands to bugis. coz we going national library to study. reach there about 2p.m headed straight to the library. went to find all my friends and started studying. today, i study maths. i did 1 past years paper. so happy. i did all by myself. really! i know how to do. yeah! we were all having fun while studying. discussing together and joking around. i am so lucky to have all these friends with me to cheer me up and make me happy at all times. no matter how sad i am on each day, my day will lighten up mixing around with them. hahas. hey guys, i love all of you! you guys rox! me too...! =) after studying, we left the library at about 6.30p.m. then we went to have our dinner together. we went KFC to eat. omg... fast food again. too much fast food this week le. lolx. not healthy already! =X

after finish eating, me, zunhao, prem and boon kiat walked to little india mrt station. woah... i was having alot of fun while walking to the mrt. so funny. laugh and laugh. stupid jokes! 4 jokers of the day. hahas. i enjoy it. =) crapping around like nobody business... hehe. =D

brr.. br... it's cold in here. rain and rain. very cold. i am shivering whenever i go into air-con places. i need warmth... lolx. never mind.
i saw you today. my heart miss 1 beating. izzit our fate to meet each other? i think is our fate. it cant to go qiao that we saw each other. you smile at me. ur smiles had lighten up me. you are still the same. never change at all. when i saw you, i cant stop myself to run to you to hug you. but, my legs just stood rooted to the ground. i cant even move. what am i thinking again? stop thinking xinni! pls return to reality. no more means no more. why cant i just forget every single thing? xinni: because it had been all rooted into my brain. cant be earsed or deleted. sighs. life is full of ups and down. must really learn how to get things done properly. no regret is to have. i am tired. i need to get more sleep. i have to get more sleep. i want to sleep. zzz. good night guys. take care of urself. dont fall sick hor! weather now very cold. will fall sick easily de. so everyone, pls take care.

love,
xinni

RP library

RP swimming pool? lolx.

RP convention hall

RP goodie bag

say cheese! Jazebel lim li min

stupid expressions. Lim Joo Ting

me! sitting in the bus. =)

zhilong, dont be so serious lei. relax man!

boon keat is studying... =)

zhilong, dont act lahx. actually u are not studying de right?

woah... meizhen is going her work.

that's me. i am doing my work hor! jia you.

me again. happily doing the maths. so hardworking man..!

prem, what are u doing? sleeping rite? lolx.

hey guys. boon keat got 1 twin brother. just found it today. kawai!

what a messy place we are studying. =X

all seriously doing with maths.

hey! see who is studying? boon keat hor. dont play play. hahas.

ah ma mei zhen. smiles.

ah gong zun hao. =D

we all rox! love you guys man!

my polka dots shoes. nice mahx? is retro! lolx. i wear thins today.

siao char bo. is me! lol.

who is this? aiyo, me lahx. Goh Xinni.

2007-01-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

rainy day...

so cold... every night is raining... i am cold. can you be by my side? hug me? or even hold my hands? i can feel the warmth coming out of your hand. i miss all these so much. i just cant forget the days, it had been glued to my brainy. =) can i be there to help u cover the blanket over you? make sure you wont feel cold while sleeping. i dont noe why am i writing all these things. is just come across my mind. it might be i am dreaming about you. i can see your shadows in the rain. looking at me. smiling at me. asking me to take care. why cant i just see you in your appearance? *dreaming* i just miss you so much. time really flies. it had been 13 days. hope these days will eventually stop one day.

i really dont noe what to blog. weather is so cold, my mind and heart are so cold too. i can't think properly. i will upload others photos that i took during my break time. sorry guys, these few days, dont really noe what to blog about. so much things inside my mind. studies, projects, love and everything. i think i shall stop here. tk care guys. sleep well in the cold, gloomy night. love all of you. especially YOU!

2007-01-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

speechless...

i am too tired to say anything now. tommor is a long day in school.
let the photos will do the talking. sorry abt it. take care guys. =)

sleeping in PC bunk while zhilong and zunhao are playing maple. =X

sad? miss who? spongebox!

hahas. xinni acts cute. lolx. =P

mapling... lolx.

zhilong's character. handsome rite? =)

zunhao's character. so cute. is a girl hor!

what a huge box? superdog.

zunhao looks so GIRL! hahas.

zhilong's new bought slipper? nice?

why do guys like to play maple so much? can even stop them from doing it. =P

wong zhilong, stop playing! i am very BORED.

no.31 is mine! =)

(left to right) zhilong,SPERMS,me,zunhao and boon keat.

you again. dont you all think "she" looks like a girl? =X

declicious! heavenly. chilli cheesy fries. try it urself

is nice!

see how big is the burger? not really that nice.

bear this in mind. it works.

cute mahx? my frenz says it looks like MARCUS. lolx.

who is marcus?the green shirt de! stupid zhilong!

guess who is this? zhilong's new shirt. nice? today went shopping after school. hahas. i choose for me de. =)

nice? this is also i choose de. =) yeah! you yan huang. lolx.

2007-01-09T21:14:00.000+08:00

Tired day...

lesson starts at 10a.m. as usual, i woke up at 8.30a.m. went to take a hot bath and changed my clothes and headed to the MRT to meet my friends. reach the mrt at 9.25a.m. i was late coz i supposed to meet my friends at 9.15a.m. but ends up, my friend was also late. =X when the train arrived, we went in. then we alight at serangoon mrt station to meet another friend. lolx. and what time was it now? omg... we are late for lesson again. all ur fault lahx, "SPERMS". hahas. ask u not to wait for zunhao liao mahx. zzz. nvm. we wait for him and we took mrt from serangoon mrt station at 10.05a.m. can u imagine how late was it now? lesson have already started and where are we? still taking MRT from serangoon to dover. xinni ah! pls do something about your attidue. tsk tsk. when we reach is already 11a.m. lolx. lesson will end 30mins later. woah... attendence was taken. lecturer is going through questions. have ask other frenx for a copy of their work and bringing home to study. =X

after that, is maths lesson. from 3p.m to 4p.m is maths lecture. then from 4p.m to 5.30p.m is maths tutorial. during the maths, i will super bored. done finish my work but lecturer don want to let us home. so i began to do stupid things. hahas. taking lecturer's photos, frenz and drawing. woah. today i saw my frenz's hand. is swollen up man. so red and big. is just look like a pig's hand. hahas. so poor thing. it looks very pain. poor chong yee. =(

after school, i went to plaza sing with my frenz. i didn't want to go home so early and my frenz wanted to eat some snacks so i accompany them. we went to KFC to eat. i ordered cheese fries. so nice. the cheese and mayo also sink inside my mouth. hahas. craving for foods again. omg! xinni, you are getting fatter and fatter. stop eating so much! otherwise later no guys will want u anymore. zzz. lolx. fatty xinni!

u noe what? today i kick my frenz's leg with my leg. you noe what my frenz say? xinni: pls move ur TROTTER away and stop using ur TROTTER to kick me. arghz... i was like... wth.. do my leg really look like a pig's leg? sob sob.. so sad. i am a pig now.. oink oink. staying in a sty now. muhahaha.

hey guys, tell you all something! xinni has grown up. she has more matured thinking. lolx. i am going to study hard. exam coming in 3 weeks time. going out to study with my frenz on saturday. i going to study! hurray! jia you. believe in yourself. you can do it! =)

nothing much to add on. shall stop here.
*weather is getting colder and colder. remember to bring a jacket out and an umbrella before u go out. =) take care guys!

photos time!

i got do my work hor! hahas. maths tutorial. my hand writing is so NEAT! =P

Matthew wrote this on his paper. zzz. lend u pen still say my pen will spoil. muhahaha... =D

Zun Hao: stop acting lei! you are sleeping not doing your work lor. trying to act only! =P

Chong Yee's hand. so poor thing. *pig's hand* lolx. oppos! so sorry. get well soon.

marcus asking lecturer's questions. =)

i am really bored! nothing to do. so just draw this out. XINNI ROX!

yanhan: what are u tring to do? trying to point MIDDLE finger at lecturer rite? hahas. jkjk. =X

what a cute lecturer i have. so cute. i wanted to take a photo of her and she pose such a cute face out. lolx. her tongue is sticking out. cute rite? =)

2007-01-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

7 january 2007, sunday.

i am burnt! both body very pain and hot. BABY LOBSTER! lolx. i have a invisible shirt inside my body that i am wearing it. omg. the tanning oil really works. hahas. i am hot... extrememly hot. burnt... can anyone help me? ice!!! hahas.

nothing more to add now.

take care guys! see you all soon. smiles. =)

2007-01-06T19:20:00.000+08:00

WHAT A DAY OUT...

i woke up very early in the morni at 9a.m. when i woke up,as i was opening up the curtains, the sun is already shinning highly in the sky. i can hear birds chirping happily, butterflies flying into my room. what a lovely saturday morning. *honk honk*
here comes the nagging again. guess who is it? of course my mum, MRS SHARON TAN. lolx. she came into my room and started all her nagging. nags and nags. she don't allow me to go out today but ends up, she is allows me to go out. hahas. (what a nice and weird mum i have) hmmx.. not bad. mummy: I LOVE YOU.
before i went out, i cooked lunch for my younger brother. hey. xinni knows how to cook too! lolx.
i cooked macaroni for him and myself.

ingredients are:
1) chicken breast meat
2) crab sticks
3) chicken franks
4) 2 eggs
5) cabbages
6) macaroni

that's all you need for cooking a delicious and tasty soup macaroni. =)
yeah...!i get compliment for cooking! my brother praised me for what i had cook.
i am so happy! yeah. cheers!

after that, i bathe and got changed and went to meet jooting at buangkok mrt station. supposed to meet her at 12.30p.m but i was late again. so sorry. poor joo ting always have to wait fo me. sorry. =) jooting needs to get help her brother to buy blazer for this coming sunday's wedding. so we headed down to bugis street to buy. walk and walk, see and see. so many patterns. see untill blur! ends up she finally decided which design to buy. the blazer is cheap, only $30. woah. so guys who need a blazer can go out to bugis street to buy. *in my eyes, a guys who wear a blazer always looks smart.* =) so guys out there! remember to wear blazer more often. *hint hint* =P

TAKE A LOOK AT THIS STORE!!!

address: 2 New Bugis Street

Bugis village

Stall BLV A5/A6/A7/A8/A27/A28

(behind mei zhen xiang, near bus-stop)

call Dan @ (+65) 81124402

E-mail: hondavtec@hotmail.com

took mrt down to city hall. went to suntec city mall to shop. we went into TOPSHOP. omg...! the panties there are so sexy and beautiful. so many different types of patterns. G-strings, thongs etc... so girly! guess what? i bought PANTIES again. wth... what had happen to me? of some many things i can, i went to buy PANTIES... NONO... xinni: are u pervert? lolx. this time round, i bought G-string and thongs. hahas. i think i just bought forsake of buying babx. lolx. i bought something for *someone* too. hahas. HORNY sailor air scent. i love the words so much. horny sailor. lolx. after that, i was feeling very hungry. went to eat dinner at macdondal. then went home. on the way home, was in the mrt. there a guy who until super cool and jap man. i live his jeans so much. artistic man! hmmmx... from what i see, to me, his guy seems to be a very daring guy. coz not alot of guy will dare to wear this type of jeans out. hahas. =)

OMG...! xinni: what are you doing again? eat and eat... snowflakes with milk! after eating that, i ate nata decoco! hahas. i just cant stop eating these few days. getting fatter and fatter each day. =P aiya... nevermind lahx. tommor got sailing training mahx. BURN MY FATS OUT IN THE SEA!!! hahas. =X

myy younger brother just now shows me what my daddy bought for him. sis, i let u see what daddy bought for me, you will sure envy de. woah... he got a new watch. a CASIO watch. coolx man. daddy, i also want. hahas. nvm lahx. i got alot of watches le. save the money for other things babx. =) daddy, i love you!

that's all for today. below is my thinking and reflections! take care guys. smiles!

photos time!!!

nice? so pinky! is make of plastic. looks so fake when wearing it. =X

red slipper. so cute. lolx.

this is the jeans that i was refering. doesn't it looks jap and cool? =)

joo ting and me. say cheeze!

what a stupid face joo ting has. me too! =X

smiles. whitening teeth!

mint green. g-strings.

back view =P

blue lacy thongs. nice colour. love it man. =)

my younger brother's watch. nice?

snow flakes with milk.

blogging while eating. hahas.

Nata De Coco cubes

=)

wearing spectacles. nice? looks so nerd!

Xinni's thinking:

throughout few these days, many things have strike my mind. love, friendships, family and goals.
- love: i am waiting for you. i cant stop myself in thinking, dreaming of you.

You are all I think about...

floating in my dreams...

I can't wait to be with You...

You are all I need...

- friendship: i love all of you man! all my wonderful frenx out there. thank for being with me when i am feeling down.thanks for all the encouragement! i really have fun spending my time with all of you. all my sailors! you all ROX. class 1B/06, thank for helping me in my school's work. really have fun with you guys! =) all my best babe! bitching around... hahas. =)

-family: what does the words FAMILY stands for? FATHER AND MOTHER, I LOVE YOU.
so many things have happen, i have learn my lesson. i have learn how to strong. not everything can be solve by thinking to kill yourself. it's really a stupid and silly thinking i have. but now, i have really changed. i have learn to be strong and love my parents for what they are. i am really lucky i am born in this family. not always all the sad moments i have. i have alots of happy memories too. i know how important is my family to me one. they are all in me. they are my everything. i have learn alot of things. thanks mum. you are the best mummy in the world. although sometimes you scold me but i know you still love me. you still care and concern for me. thanks mum! love you. not forgetting my handsome daddy. you are the most loving and caring daddy in the world. you are working very hard everyday just to give me the best things you can afford. you have been working very hard. hang on there, dad. i promised i will do my best in whatever i am doing now. i will study hard and excel what i am learning now - sailing. i will do it. cheers! daddy and mummy, i love you.

- goals: my goals for my whole life is to open a resturant. slowly stretch out to more section. if business is doing well, maybe can even gountil other countries. i want to be an entrepreneur! doing business. i will aim towards my goals. first, i need to get results in order to get into an university. then, when i am in university, i will study business. this is where my dreams and goals will come through. hahas. study hard man! bright future ahead waiting for you. xinni: don't give up! jia you. =)

2007-01-05T13:39:00.000+08:00

Firehouse

I Live My Life For You
Y'know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

Chorus:
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together

I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

Chorus

I live my life for you

listen, read and understand each line.
every line has a meaning to it.
hope all of u enjoy it. =)
songs: I LIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU by Firehouse

2007-01-04T18:50:00.000+08:00

today is rather a boring day for me.

i got nothing to do out there.

so bored.

can anyone tells me how to kills my boredom???

sleeping? nono... i think i am a pig man! today slept until 1.30p.m then wake up. omg...! xinni: are you suffering from any problem? =X

wake up then taken my lunch.

then sat in front of the study table.

*dreaming dreaming*

really dont noe what i can do.

took a blank piece of paper and started drawing...

this is what i drew out!

what i had draw in the afternoon.

PrinCess xinni loves all of you

any more parties coming up? so long never go for parties.

that's all for today.

I AM BORED!

PLS BRING ME OUT!

CALL ME !

lolx. =X

take care everyone! weather is rather cold now. do wear more and remember to bring an umberalla out before u go out. =)

2007-01-04T14:10:00.000+08:00

3rd january 2007, wednesday.

today supposed to go for sun-tanning with jooting at sentosa.

but end up we didn't went for sun-tanning.

the weather is good but unfortunately it is not sunny at all.

so jooting decided that why not go eat breakfast first then decide whether still want to go sun-tanning.

so we went to ya kun to eat.

after that, we headed to harbourfront to shop.

jooting says she needed a pair of heels for ur cousin's wedding so we went looking for it.

we walked into charles and keith and started trying out heels.

hahas.

finally, after spending much effort, jooting finally bought her heels. jooting, u should wear more heels. u look good in heels! =)

after that i wanted to go vivio city to shop.
as we walked, we went to all the shops to see.

then we walked into La SENZA.

a shop that sells lingeria.

SHOPPING FEVER!

what i bought?

i bought PANTIES!!! LOLX.

Foil Fan LR Hipster

Holiday Pop Dixie Lr Bikini

Prairie Meadows Stripe Lr Biki

tis are the panties that i bought at lasenzA.

aftter that went to see the gotheborg outside vivo city

i think let the pictures doing the talking.

what a big sail it has.

welcome to GOTHEBORG!!!

JOOTING and ME!!! SMILES =)

that's me! looks so STUPID! LOLX. =x

Those are the cre members. the white colour shirt is the CAPTAIN.

IMO means international maritime organisation

what a big ruddle!!!

stern view of GOTHEBORG

me again.=P

THE GOTHEBORG

summary of the GOTHEBORG

that's all for today.

take care peeps.

smiles. =)

2007-01-02T22:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY COUSIN, ANDREW!!!

hope all your wishes come true. stay coolz always. become more shuai hor! =P stay happy forever. may all ur wishes come true. may god bless you. =)

woah! so full. stomach feel like EXPLODING... eaten so much food just now.

hmmx... what have i eaten just now? let me recall again...

1)chilli crab

2)pepper crab

3)man tou

4)kang gong

5)wheat prawn

6)xiao bai cai

7)lemon chicken

8)bai gu ji

i think don't have le babx. hey! still have lahx. ice-kachang, ice-cream...

finally, the last food of the day! the birthday cake. so nice man. fully coated with chocolate. yummy! love it man. =) remember those who got reads my blogs hor! my birthday is on 28 march. know which type of cake to buy liao right? hahas. jkjk. aiyo, just remember can liao le. *wink wink* OMG! XINNI: YOU ARE GOING TO BE FAT! EAT AND EAT! LTR OVERWEIGHT DEN YOU KNOW! hahas. so nice. can't wait to stop eating. if can eat up every delicious foods in the world, i would be more than happy. =)

that's all for today.

let's the photos do the talking.

yummy cake! so chocolately!

candles all lighted up. so nice, can't bear to eat it.

that's mine cousin. hey andrew, happy birthday!

(from left to right)

4th uncle, 4th kelly aunt, andrew

family photo.

so warming. =)

i love this tag so much. a heart shape with happy birthday on it.

can't it sweet?

omg! where's the cake? oppos, all inside our stomach. =P

that's all. take care guys. love all of you! see you all soon.

smiles always =)

*xinni's philosophy: the more you smile, the longer you can live and you will be the most happiest person in the world. so do smiles more! =)

2006-12-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

a warm soft cheek landed on mine.. a sweet feeling rushed through my body as he whispered in my ear.. it felt as if we were sharing a secret that the rest of the world didn't know.. i smiled to myself as i looked into his eyes and wondered is it fate that we met?

i love him.

Love. its such an undescribable feeling. when i look into his eyes, i feel as if i've known him my whole life. when i'm in his arms i just wanna hold him tight and make sure i never let go.. the feeling is powerful and scary at the same time. we talk about the past and leave it behind.

we talk about the future in anticipation. for the first time. i can actually visualise a future with the one i'm with. i imagine a humble home. while i'm cooking he wraps his arms around me and while watching me cook he teaches me a few of his tricks.. and a few years later while he's cooking i'm with our kid teaching him the abc and cooing at the new born in his basinet.. and when they are all grown up with kids of their own, we'll be sitting on the sofa thinking back on our lives and the way we met and the way we ended up together, the obstacles we had to overcome along the way and how we finally made it this far.

i don't know why tears are trickiling down my cheek while i'm typing this.. it may be because its a beautiful image.. it may be also the fear of losing this dream...

love is scary. you never know what will happen next. while i'm imaging this scenario, he might be imagining another.. and He from up above might have planned another..

i'm afraid to lose what i have now.. i've given all my heart.. i've taken a gamble. i've decided to jump into the unknown. if i lose this bet, everything will be gone.. i trust and put my whole heart into this relationship..

come what may..

i gave u my whole heart. don't let me down. i love you.

2006-12-29T19:10:00.000+08:00

Where did you go?

where is the man that i fell in love with?
the one who would never make me cry...
who does silly things to just to hear me laugh?
where's the man who was so responsible?
the one who promised me he'd never enter a pub again..
the one who promised me that he'd quit the habit?
where is he?
why is he no longer here?
where has he gone??
please come back to me...
please...
i can't take the heart ache any longer..
it hurts so much i can't breathe.....
please come back to me..
help me find the man i fell in love with..
bring him back to me..
please?
i miss him..
i really do..
Where'd you go?
I miss you soSeems like its been forever that you've been goneWhere'd you go?
I miss you soSeems like its been forever that you've been gonePlease Come back home

PLEASE COME BACK

2006-12-29T11:03:00.000+08:00

Whenever i listen to this song- jia gei wo, tears will just roll down my cheeks. i will be thinking about the things we do and the times we will be spending to together. i want it all back. can i? i dont want to put it as my memories. i dont want. sighs. can i? can you sing this songs to me again. i want to listen to your voice. will you?

i have been living in the dark for these few days. when can i see light? when everything is fine?
sighs. when can i meet u? i want to go to sunplaza park. all my memories are there. can i?

i really love you with all my hearts. hope to meet up with you soon.

pls take care of yourself. may god bless you. love you always.

2006-12-24T18:14:00.000+08:00

sad sad sad!
what had happen?
do u think your decision is right?
why must you make your decision so suddenly?
can i go back to time?
if can, nothing will happen.
i am sure.
but why?
cant we just solve everything out?
u tell me to blame everything on you.
how do you think i will feel after hearing this?
blame evrything to you!
hate you!
i cant do it.
it's very difficult for someone to hate someone she loves.
i noe is hard for you to think and make any more decision now.
you need time.
i think the best way is to cool ourselves down.
and re-think and then decide what to do next.
i hope everything will be fine.
can we do it?

yesterday, 23 dec 2006.
after reading my e-mail, i was damm sad.
my hearts once sink again.
this time round, it worst.
sink right down into the sea bed!
is anchored.
sighs.
why?
i can't sleep, eat or do anything.
i kept thinking of the things that you say.
this is the worst christmas that i will be having.
i am tired.
but i just cant sleep.
when i close my eyes and tell myself to sleep and stop thinking about it.
i just cant do it.
tears keep rolling down my eyes.
what had happen?
now, i cried again.
sob sob.
i dont noe what to do.
can you teach me?
can u guide me through the darkness.
can you light up my lights?
will you?
i am sad.
i cant control my feeling.
i want to meet you out.
can i?
pls decide on the time and place .
i will be waiting for you.
i got nothing much to say.

merry christmas to everyone.
hope all your wishes come true.
*will my wishes come true?*

2006-12-21T20:48:00.000+08:00

crying in process...
sob sob...
why must we encounter with all this problem?
i dont want anything to happen.
i treasure the times that i spend with you.
i love you with all my hearts.

2006-12-21T17:31:00.000+08:00

I AM VERY SORRY.

I APOLOGISE FOR WHAT HAD HAPPEN TODAY.

i really don't know it will happen like this.

i am really very sorry.

i am so hopeless.

i cant even protect my bf.

sighs.

what on earth am i still living for?

i am really not a good gf as you think.

everytime i make u suffered.

that's all i can do.

why why?

can u tell me why?

why do i have this type of brother?

what the fuck!

he always think that he is just so BIG!

anyone he don't like, he just don't give a damm to the person.

why is there still this type of people living in this earth?

if i can choose, i RATHER DON'T HAVE THIS TYPE OF BROTHER.

he just sux!

why must he do that to my bf?

why?

HE ALSO NEVER DO ANYTHING TO YOU.

YOU DON'T HIS FACE, IS YOUR PROBLEM.

WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO MY BF?

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?

I TELL YOU SERIOUSLY LAHX.

I HATE YOU TO BE MY BROTHER.

YOU JUST SUX!

YOU HAVE NEVER SHOW ANY CARE AND CONCERN TO ME.

WHENEVER YOU NEED MONEY, YOU WILL JUST TAKE FROM ME!

WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM TO YOU?

DID U REALLY TREAT ME AS YOUR SISTER?

HAVE YOU?

I CAN ANSWER FOR YOU.

NEVER EVER HAVE!

WHATEVER THING YOU DON'T LIKE, YOU WILL USE VIOLENCE TO SETTLE IT!

JUST SIMPLY SAY LAHX.

YOU EVEN BEAT YOUR OWN FATHER LAHX!

WHAT WRONG WITH YOU?

WHY ARE YOU STILL LIVING?

CAN YOU JUST DIE NOW?

I REALLY HATE YOU TO THE CORE!

i don't get the link at all.

can anyone tell me?

i am going insane!!!

sighs.

i shouldn't have ask you out today.

i am sorry.

if i never ask you to come out today, nothing will happen.

is all my fault.

i really don't know what to do.

i am tired.

I HATE THE LIFE THAT I AM LIVING NOW!!!

things just happen so fast.

in speed seconds.

and now is gone.

so far away...

i really don't know what he wants!

does apearance matter?

what the fuck!

i can't stand it anymore.

kill me man!

speechless...

sob sob...

=(

2006-12-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

today's race doesn't really look like a race to me!
Thye Hock seems to be coaching us how to sail with J-24.
today, i had my first lesson for keelboat sailing. =X
Thye hock really teaches us alot.
I learn alot from him. =)
Woah... today's race is a crush race!
so many things went wrong.
we can't really put up the spin.
which make us loose spped alot. =X
BUT... after the 2nd race onwards, we managed to host the spin up!
when the spin is up, all of us is like so happy.
SCREAMING FOR JOY =)
we simply just look like same kid!
after the race, the results are out.
GUESS WHAT?
WE ARE THE LAST! =X
congratulation to RSYC SATU.
Aiyo, today i nearly die.
hahas. I nearly flew out of the boat.
omg! i also never wear life-vest lor! =X
i am burnt! face pain pain.
zzz...
yeah! i am so happy.
tommor i can meet bennett le.
after my race, i will be going to meet him.
i am just so happy.
I AM THE MOST HAPPIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD!
hehe. =P

MY DREAMS IS FULFILLED!
Bennett: i have thought over it just now.
I feel that i also must do something mend our relationship.
I think that is not only you who need to change.
Can you please tell me what to do?
So that i can change.
tommor, i can meet bennett le.
yeah! so happy.
dear, i will rush off to meet you after my race.
I will try my best to meet you on time.
coz i don't noe what time will the race end. =)
dear, please take care of urself.
i will be there for you when you need me.
i will always be ur shoulder.
i going to sleep now.
having a very bad headache and gastric. so tired! block-nose.
sighs!
aiya nevermind. tommor meet bennett le, my illness will be fully healed. =)
i think i will stop here. i am very tired. i need to go orh orh... otherwise tommor got panda eyes le. =P

good nitez everyone. sweet dreams.

signing off,
baby lobster

2006-12-16T06:24:00.000+08:00

A NEW DAY AHEAD - J-24 REGETTA

Hey guys, is 6.24a.m in the morni.
I just finish making sandwich-bread with ham and cheeese that i will be bringing out to sea to eat.
Phew, today i wake up very early in the morni.
sighs! or I should say I didn't manage to have a good sleep yesterday night.
I was having BLOCK-NOSE the whole night. haiz.
Which make me not able to sleep. *xiang si bin*
Therefore, I can wake up so early in the morni.
Hope that today's race will be successful.
Wo hui jia you de!!!
XINNI ENDURE man!!!
so many ppl is out there to support you.
you can do it. =)

Bennett: I had thought over the night.
I apologised for my childishness.
Sorry for always making you sad and angry because of me.
As a gf, I should respect your decision.
You can't meet that because you got your own reason.
I shouldn't have doubts over your reason.
i am sorry.
If you don't like my attitdue, you can just tell me.
It's only 2 weeks, i never see you.
Some people will consider this as SHORT.
BUT as for me, I think that is very LONG.
I don't really know how u feel against this.
DO YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU MISS THE PERSON SO MUCH AND YOU CAN'T MEET HIM IS WHAT TYPE OF FEELING?
I can tell you the answer.
Your whole body will feel as if you are going to EXPLODE!
tell people that you miss your bf.
what will your frenz say?
aiyo. miss him ah?
go meet him lor.
say is easy to say, but when come to do is sort of difficult.
sighs. nevermind. forget it.
I think I am "suffering" with some LOVE SICK babx.
sorry. I always only think of myself, I never consider your feeling and your stand.
I apologise to you again.
take care of yourself.

Deng dai
* what the first thing i would like to see after the race? Xinni would like to han dao bennett!!!*
this is only a dream.
will it happen?

2006-12-15T17:31:00.000+08:00

Feeling tired and lonely...
Heart shattered ...

Already 2 weeks never see you liao le.
Now, when you are back.
you also never tell me or msg me.
i was there waiting for your reply.
i keep on taking out my hp see if u got msg me to tell me that you have safely reach singapore but nothing. why?
maybe you are busy and tired after long hours of flight. never mind.
Also cannot meet you. Or I should say both of us are equally busy.
haiz. what wrong? we are too busy until can't even find time to meet each other? sighs! =(
this sat and sun, I will be going for J-24 regetta.
Next Mon, which is the day after the race, i will be going oversea and this will 3 days.
woah... after coming back from holiday, there will be camp and christmas party.
so many things just happen like that. so tired. really got no time for each other izzit? =X don't know what to say. dotx ...

i was looking forward to meet u tommor.
but you msg me and tell me that you are going to the dentist early in the morning.
after seeing this msg, my heart just sink down. sink right to the bottom. sighs.
i don't know whether got any chances to meet you tommor.
If have, that's will be good. If cannot, then that's too bad. aiya. we are JUST too busy.
Having headache now. very very pain. shit!
tommor is the race and I am getting sick soon. sighs.
XINNI: you must take care of yourself. can't fall sick in this period of time. =X headache, heart pain. everywhere pain! =X
i think i should end here.
NO MOOD TO SAY

ANYTHING ELSE.
speechless... XINNI: jiayou for tommor race!!! do your best. ENDURE!

missing you deadly...
hope you take care of yourself!
* Do you understand the songs? *